Today was like a torture...I was so strange...I mean I can feel myself acting strange! Those P.E. lessons, we danced and it was Okay. But then...after lunch, I just don't feel like smiling anymore...it seemed like the end of the world..."Why Does The Sun Go On Shining? Why Does The Sea Goes To Shore..."~heard that song before? The melody was like flowing in my mind...and I feel like I'm dying.  Finally it's time of the test and we had to go to the classroom on the 3rd floor(same floor with Sandra's classroom.) I went to her, maybe she must be busy studying for her last minute, but she came out.  And she hugged me..I told her I was really scared.  She hugged me and I cried..I never knew I would cry like that..in front of the whole school..it's quite emberessing.  Anyway, I felt really comforting..and I wanna thank her for being so supportive.  Finally, this math test thing is over.  You know, my mom kinda wants to send me to a phycologist~she said I fear maths in a terrible way....although I agree~do you think I'm really an idot?~I know this is kinda unusual....I just can't control...everytime when there's math teat...I suffer from FEAR...I even got horrible dreams~of being kicked out of my house cuz I never pass my tests.........Terrible.

  Now...wanna say sorry to Kenneth~it's making me feel guilty if I don't say sorry.  I'm So terribly Sorry! ok? Forgive me, please! I know I'm being kind of bad...but..well~what do u want me to do...to make you forgive me?  I SWEAR I never looked at it! And I won't look at it without your permission..i swear. Then...what can I do~you want me to write you a story or tell you one of my secrets or something? I can't hug you sorry like I did to Sandra...u know...(just to break down this fearful and serious moment...for fun)So...Why don't you forgive all of us...and be Soooo generous and out-going that all of us will just Love you, ok? Come on now....boys can't be like that....unless u wanna act like a girl....so...Forget it...and...

Sorry   (english)

désolé   (french)

droevig  (dutch)

traurig   (german)

spiacente   (italian)

pesaroso   (portuguese)

огорченно   (russian)

apesadumbrado   (spanish)

유감스러운   (korean)

I'm sooooo frustrated now...so TERMINATED!