Now, I'm really heart-broken~Steph, you knows why, but just keep it secret, ok? I just can't stop imagining...and.....I can't stand it! There's no more space to hold my imagination, I knew that all this time I'm just dreaming...(sobbing) Well, ignore what I said~cuz none of you will understand.

  Looking forward to the nextt Wednesday, cuz Becky's coming! I just can't wait to see her! Please hold my tears though...oka, I know I can do this.  So extremely excited!!!