Another day full of tragedy...my eyes hurts and look terrible due to too much crying...that heart-sinking feeling often enters...I'm really scared.  They really Do mean a LOT to me...more than anyone can imagine...I swear i can do anything to make it up to them...but some words really do hurt sometimes~and I'm just too good at pretending it's ok as if it's a joke.  Feel so empty....fear comes~but thank you for those lovely friends who gave me comfort...little angels who are always there to support...thanks and love everyone of you!

  I'm really sorry for being so busy these days that I didn't have time to spend with Sandra and Florence and all...and...just that~you all mean a LOt to me, a lot more than you can imagine...and just~thank you for everything...your plans for my everything...It's really touching when you told me....and it's really nice to have you all care about me...I love you both too much!!! "Friends are willing to be as crazy as the other guy"~love ya!