swim with the fishes

    there are the oceasion of friends,perople who talkes to me now n again. living in a big city such as this really isnt at all glorious... yeah maybe there is the faster transportation system, easily connection with people,but there also the fact everyone is so uptight, always so seirous.... its like a jem jar locking everything in... i cant stand it.. it's like a vocano waiting 2 explode. i miss my best friend TANNER RYLLIE MANSON,and i miss my other half,my angel my sould mate, my hero JONTHAN  BLANKERSHIP. the many little messages they've send me from the phone are sweet n encouraging , but also sinical... its like little drops of missery.. reminding myself that over there, over there''s is where i want to b, where i fit in,where i belone, n where im loved n wanted... i wish there's someone here i could actually connect with... but none...  why would anyone want 2 anyways...  i'd probely just scare off anyone who even tries...