I start to write my diarly again.... But it's not a good begining anymore, we had broken up and I'm cheated again, it's really fucking tired.  Anyway, I need to go along the way which I've chosen, I have no any alternative.

Last night, I go to pub again.... just like my fucking meaningless time in Yr 1.   Coz I want to be drunk, I want to be drunk in my life too.   Actually, I'm drunk....  The feeling is really worst but it should be better than the feeling of breaking heart.   I vomitted once and once again till 5:00 in morning,  all the thing is pull out, everything is emitted, I vomited until I couldn't vomit anything out..... Ths stomach is just like to be toren in to half....  I fell into sleep with my painful heart and stomach.....No nightmare in that night, I slept until 12:00 in this morning.  My fucking new life is start again after the hyper-night......