Half way through of one assignment

god knows y im doing that slow

but anyway..thank god that ive finally doing it..

must thank fian so much as she told me a lot things to help me

if she could finish two assignments a day

i definitely can finish at least one a week!

thats y..

im trying very very hard to do it...

2nite..i got the room myself

as babe has gone to his "dog's nite" with his workmates

women not allowed!

so i stay here...facing my pc after work..

well, i actually quite enjoy it..hv couple of hrs myself

rite...better hv a fag now

and carry on my work!

 Couldnt sleep vey well these few days..

keep hving nightmare..

The first that can think of when i just open my eye

is stress...

I know..how to start is the most difficult part

once you hv started..everything will go alrite..

but how to start?

There are so much work! which one to start off?

anyway..done a little bit..

not a bad start

Yup! I am coming now!!

I think this is the only thing i can say to keep myself alive.

Been in UK for nearly 4 years

to me

this is coldest winter ive ever experienced

its freezing either during day or nite time

not only outside, but also inside our bedroom

It is cold...

Sometimes..i think, whats the point?

Cant i just hv an easy life?

get a normal job, hv a normal life

not the best abviously, but at least not the worst either

7000 pound..

if there is no that 7000 pound, i wouldnt even consider to stay here

I will be out

gaining the real life experience!

Yes...im fed up, im realy fed up!

like I said before

I ve lost the will to carry on

I am here again

couldnt be bothered to come on here last few days..

donno y

maybe becos my bad mood..

i come here now doesnt mean im in good mood actually

holiday has started since yesterday..

but i don feel any relifed

 in face, i feel more stressed

as i realy hv a lot of work to do in a short time

Sandy is so lucky..as she is in HK now

hope she will enjoy her holiday

England is getting colder and colder

winter is really here with us

last nite i think it was around -1 or 2

the ground had gone realy icy..

mm.. christmas is coming..

they r begging me to working on Christmas Eve

i said, unless is double pay, i wont work

how can they expect me leave my bf at home and i go to work on that special day?

especially with normal pay..

no chance

absolutely no chance..

By the way, i got some good news

well..sort of good news

the solicitor told babe that they hv ent everything to the lender already

as soon as the lender agrees and get in touch with the solicitor

we can get the keys!!

well..the thing is..they do things that slow

nobody realy knows how long it mght take..

i am fine now

ive got used to waiting...

 Couldnt stand those pills anymore

as they r actually making me worse

so i changed the pills last nite

This morning, i feel a little better

7:35 i was awake

fighting myself whether i should go 2day or not

finally, it is "no"

if i still study in dudley, i would get up and go

but stafford....only think about the journey

it makes me sick

my nose and throat r still bad

so i don wana waste my time

If these pills have side effect

i think it must be making my belly goes weird

and make me wana be sick when im going to eat something

Tmr, I am going most definitely, even i feel shit again

Stay at home again...honestly, its quite boring

wana do some work, i just donno where to start, how to start..

I wish i don need 2 go uni anymore....