i know all these troubles are made by myself, I know I aways think too much but I just want a little care and understanding..everytime I thought that I can count on you but everytime the disappointment will after me

I hate to see you left me behind, why cant you use little time to try to understand me, try to talk to me.. I am really tried and tired...once I thought  I had cry enough times and my tears run dry but then I realize that my heart still beating even though it breaks so many times and the tears still falls...