呢幾日我都好唔想打日記//...因為我有太多野唔想面對啦....
上次假既野....我都唔想諗...下次要提醒自己囉...!!!!!不過...番假之後更今人擔心....
38婦女果日我地出左去食飯..我同2條女偷食煙...點知姑娘知道左....2條女都認左..得我冇認..因為我覺得就泥轉day
唔想因為咁小事而衰....面2條女都話冇講我出泥..咁我就冇認到....平時既我...呢d咁小事我點會咖認呀...之前係明愛幾次都係咁咖啦..之後姑娘問我幾
次..我都話冇,最後...姑娘叫個同學同我講佢講左我出泥,我仙死死氣認左...姑娘好唔開心...因為佢好信任我..估唔到我會講大話...
但佢都同我地講左個故仔...佢想話比我地知...無論我地做錯咩事...只要老實,都會唔嬲我地....講講下,佢喊左出泥...我
一路聽佢講野,都扮到冇心聽咁...其實我都唔知幾唔開心,我果時同自己講...我唔會再係培立講一句大話,不過我都唔係成日講大話
咖啦不嬲都,因為我知道冇人會好似培立咁,會比咁多次機會我,,,,第2日,姑娘問我諗住點做,我話我冇諗住做d咩喎.佢話"下,我話
唔罰你假,但唔表示你可以當冇事,你要做番d野,今自己下次唔會咁"我話"哦"我對姑娘既太度真係好差,我都唔知做咩,我心情好差,
你番果2日工都冇笑過,仲喊tim,我好心痛,不過我對住佢又唔知做咩會back晒面咁,,之後我寫左封信比佢,我寫寫下喊到收唔到,
我覺得自己好...點講呢..姐係得自己一個,冇人help到自己,冇人明白自己,面我自己都唔明,我唔知自己想點,我好唔想讀書,成日
就上堂訓校,但我跟本唔眼訓,可能我係想用訓校泥今自己唔使面對咁多野,我好想屌柒我身邊既人,好想同佢地番晒面,唔知為咩...
唉......
跟住,梗不幸既事,就係有個day生唔見左電話,仲要係4a唔見,面我好似係比人懷疑果個,l wong同我講的,我都唔知講咩好...
我係last一個入4a,出泥既時候又冇人見到,番去既時候又冇姑娘知,我都唔知,,我本來諗住就算咁不利都會有人信我,但我班主任
都唔太信我,我都唔知點,我不嬲都係自己一個出入4a咖啦,估唔到有呢d事...唉,佢仲同我講埋d奇怪既說話,其實我點會咖明,佢想叫
我拎番出沱呀ma,又話咩知道係一時衝動,我好難受囉講真,鬼唔知咩,我都想係我持左,我一定交左出泥啦一早,我好明白培立一定會
比機會我,但可惜真係唔係我,我都唔知可以點
唉,我因為d 咩面生存???????????????????????唉,
想喊但喊唔出,係好慘咖,
好多事好多事,好煩好煩,男男女女既又煩,是是非非既又煩,但最煩既,係自己既內心,一直我認為我既理智可以打敗我既任性,我既
感覺,但,我比我既感覺控制住啦,我不理智啦,我快要痴線啦,我知道讀書對我好好好好好有用,我清楚自己第時要行咩路,我知我自己唔
要做d sales 仔,侍應仔,我好清楚,但我既感覺.....叫我放縱自己,我應該點做,??
朋友既男朋友我又應唔應該仲e呢,(珍珍我唔係講緊你,你放心,我一定唔會,我話既)
愛我既人,我又應唔應該愛呢.
朋友我又應該點面對呢??我覺得自己好有問題,好多唔好既地方,一d 用都冇,只係讀書有d小clever.但又懶勁唔
聽書,,,,唉,,,,,今個星期我day day 走啦,唔知我番唔番刑學呢...?好擔心...好擔心....
呀豬,你有冇上我日記咖仲,我想同你講..
"我地冇咁fd 啦,可能你仲e識多d fd 啦,不過無論點,你唔開心既時候,揾我啦,我諗我會help到你既,..."
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