究竟上帝想我點呀...係咪想喊死我....琴日喊到眼都腫了....

好累......太累了　太累了  不再飛天循地......

 上堂....冇聽書....一隻字都聽唔入......諗住老豆講個d野....眼濕濕....

小息...4個人圍住我....有3個之後走鬼左去食面....(christy,koey,angel)

我趴左係張枱....celia安慰我....又喊了.....係學校喊....唉....

成個小息就係咁過左......

miss lui走過黎安慰我=.=''

math.....派testpaper....唔理肥唔肥....冇心情.....睇睇21/30.......都係冇心情...

世屎都派testpaper....有紅筆字....但..."查"左.....見到藍字....嚇鬼死.....25/50=.=''

不過一早預左唔溫書要丞受呢種驚驚感覺........

music.....

lunch個沙爹牛肉嗎......屎一般的樣子..真係好難食.....頂唔順....唔可以再比自己受苦la......

叫celia陪我落去食面........第一次個飯開左冇食=.=''情人節...係開都冇開比番d人....

第一次lunch食面......好正.....我終於講番野......

我知christy,koey,angel好擔心我的.......又其事koey....平時我吱吱喳喳.....=.='''

食完面......問christy有冇紙巾....佢買左包比我=.=''

celia掛住溝仔.....打uno.....=.='冇理過我地既存在...

...打鐘...番上c.r.....我真真正正咁同佢地講番野...笑番了.....因為呀d=.=''

唔知乜事......又鬥低分...=.=''哈哈.....咁又笑番....

pth.....考口試...好彩.....單數死先~~~~

呀d第2個考....佢係度celan the table=.='''唔知佢咩事.......

佢考完...同佢傳紙仔....miss余冇lala啤住我=.=''算點?

之後ka wing又一齊傳-.-..明明寫住to 何騰竣=.=''咁大隻字......

算.....^^.......佢講d野....攪到我=.=得很.......+笑到傻了......

第9堂........睇etv......正....唔知佢地做緊乜.........

咁就一堂....去203

re-dict=.='''72分都要..係咪人??

=.=''whampoa....寫得樣衰小小ja...比佢打左一野=.=''

p.s...我問左呀d借塗改帶...佢借我擦膠=.=

我同celia可以走....佢仲未還=.=''玩野地咁比番我....

celia拉左我去....玩uno=.='''

之後24號又玩左一陣......
4點幾....王曉同余家銘又玩=.=''

狂係度draw,,,,celia-,-''哈哈

34號又黎睇......

之後同celia閃人....因為佢要......避呀邊個=.=''

去7仔....又食....食薯容..正....

哈哈...34號冇lala哎celia做呀嫂......celia勁大反應.......

榮升做明嫂~~~~

之後番歸,,,,就係咁

p.s......學校真係好好.....令我由唔開心變到笑哈哈.......

sor.....令到你地幾個擔心......christy多謝你包"tenpo".....同你封信.....你d句子睇我好感動...些dd又喊=.=''

陳源富.....唔該你包得2張既tenpo".......不過......好想問你.....

包紙巾....係咪我上次借比係哄celia個包黎嫁???=.=''不過好多謝你...=.=''

多謝你地既安慰!!!!!!!

7:46先上34=.=''勁驚遲到.....上次打風都係因呢架車......遲左第3次=.=''

一路上...同celia sd sms.....佢問我點面對呀邊個=.=''..又關我事...呵呵

落左車....冇lala比老媽子嚇傻左=.=情緒冇乜點....

同佢一齊擺電話番c.r.......

eng,,,,dict=.=''78分.....o....god!

music,,,,又諗.....眼濕濕.....忍住左....好辛苦.....><''

小息....o晒咀.....冇lala celia話呀d係xx我.....

有陳源富做証=.=''.........我o咀地望住呀d.......

真係想打句:9唔搭8....3唔識7.....唔知佢乜事.....

math...我今日冇聽miss 唐講野=.=''冇心情

中文....終於笑左一陣......><''

lunch....食完就閃左落去同celia捉棋=.=''佢....真係9唔搭8....唔知佢乜事...

打鐘....上c.r....悶死...搵野玩=.=''

i.s......冇左一支簽名筆=.=''

週會.....ok......好笑....

放學去library做hw.....

之後去7仔食大餐....celia請.......食杯面.....再食撈面.....再食豆腐花.....

哈哈.....好似我地失戀咁款><''佢都係忍唔住sd sms比胡耀明....

其實做乜2個會攪成咁....=.=''我知celia係唔捨得.....

但...做乜又做到咁絕呢???

知小d......對自己或許係對自己好d....冇咁多擔心....
真係好驚番到屋企.....會失去佢地.......
我都好累......以前樂觀既我......已經死左.....
而家既我.....得2個字.....死,喊.....

on左msn....狂問人math......

呀dee d字有性格到我睇唔到--

之後sd左日記板比佢睇......

冇lala教埋我點寫遺言=.=''

哈哈.......變態.......

呢2日我真係好累好累....我淨係好想喊.....但...我知喊.....係幫唔到屋企...

但我都係喊.....比胡耀明咁樣對我....我都未試過喊足2日2夜.....

真係好驚老豆同呀媽會攪到離婚....

老豆下就"親"呀媽番左工....又同我講琴日d事.....

講左1個鐘都未講完......我為左忍住唔喊......

一到做vcab一到聽佢講.........一到忍住d......喊既念頭.......

但....佢講講下....就叫我望住佢.......

佢愈講我就愈心"up".......都係忍唔住.......流左第一滴眼淚......

第二滴....第三滴....留晒出黎......我都忍受唔住.......

老豆問我如果佢同呀媽離婚....我會跟邊個.....

佢話我跟呀媽....冇所謂....因為呀媽有外家....可以照顧我.....

如果我跟佢....都冇所謂...不過辛苦d咁....要做埋呀媽個份......

我真係唔想我屋企會攪成咁.....我曾係好想死.....

講左好耐.....佢去左toliet.....我做vcab.....仍然喊緊.....

做完...佢番離....繼續講....我就溫dict......溫唔入腦....

老豆話佢真係好累....好想休息....

攪到我又喊番......雖然佢平時都對我好衰.....但....未至於想佢死......真係好矛盾.......之前仲話佢乜佢乜.....而家......

之後佢話唔知點面對呀媽.......枉佢咁信任呀媽.....

佢入番佢間bedroom個時......叫我當game咁玩下..諗下點樣解決.....
除左離婚......同繼續背住呢個大炸彈.........
我真係諗唔到.......要2全其美......佢話我諗到......一定會經一事長一智....對以後我拍拖,,,讀書....做野....都有好處......

咁樣佢就入到room.....訓覺........

我背書....記唔入腦....miss孔黑人憎.......背佢個死人頭.....

7點30....又係我煮飯.........d蛋令左好多......d腸....ok.....d菜..ok到爆

老豆醒左.....入黎....以為我係呀媽.......見到係我.....o左咀.....

之後佢讚我咁就乖啦......又想喊.....佢真係好小咁讚我......小學拎第5名都冇乜點讚.....

今晚同老豆一齊食......好耐冇試過一家4口坐埋一齊食.....些唔多2年la...

好懷念...之後老豆講左我以前唔知既野比我聽......

原來呀媽....有......我又喊了......未試變得咁易喊......

我個心一路趺落去......我知道佢地好快會離開我.......

我會變成......喊.......得個喊字......

之後佢又講....佢小個d野....佢好小提佢細個d野嫁.......

食完....我呆呆地咁坐左係部腦前面....同celia chat......

我而家真係有苦自己知.....我要扮到好開心咁.....

其實一d都唔開心.......想自殺.........

直至celia同我講一件事...令我有d興趣.....我就放低唔再諗......

佢話佢問左呀d鐘意邊個........想知.....問何騰竣.......我都想知...

佢話佢對住celia就話佢愛celia
佢對住我就係我愛你
佢對住koey就係佢愛koey
o左咀........

都好....佢令到我有短暫既開心......

直至我打呢篇日記.....我又喊左出黎.....

我真係好驚呀......我而家好累.....好唔舒服......
好似有d病.....

我好憎放假.......我係細路咪好lo......唔洗好似而家咁.......

真係好煩........好想死........

有個fd話今日佢同佢個bf 拍拖拖......真係好羨慕佢地........

個fd仲話佢地咀埋........又見到班主任..........勁o咀......

佢話好驚有朝一日佢同條仔會散......
希望主保守佢地!!
我又去喊了....