好...生日終於都過左,呢幾個禮拜真係經歷左好多野...有一樣野真係一時之間好無奈...
係生日左右個段時間,聽係2A班D FRIEND講,2A班班個陣講緊<基佬>,本身都唔係講緊我,之後個勁串既曾..無啦啦
提起我,話我係<基基地>,之後2A班就不斷討論呢件事,愈講愈過份...我本身都唔太清楚,之後我個FD講番比我知,我先
留意到佢地真係話緊我, 我聽到之後好無奈,真係唔知點解會有人話我,係,我係鍾意唱歌,高音既歌我都成日唱,我個樣又
唔夠MAN,身材又極瘦,但都唔足以成立我<基基地>架播,有幾日,我真係有D唔開心,有一啲諗唔開,有幾日都比較沉默,冇乜
心情,成個冇晒POWER,有一日仲要有位KAIKAI地既2A學生直接叫我<基佬>,我唔知點解好會咁傻仔,會比人話唔出聲咁
低架,但係我唔想出聲,我真係驚有人話我為自己辯護,我都係忍住,個日我真係好唔開心,好想發脾氣,個日我訓左個覺,先做
功課,我驚我冇心情做功課。做完功課,都已經差唔多1點,冇得唱歌解放下,個心仲係好空虛,同女朋友又分左手,唔多理我,打
左個勁長既SMS比MISS LAM,希望佢可以幫到我,都冇諗住佢會回復我,雖然佢唔係復我SMS,佢係FREE WRITING到寫番D
意見,佢第二日比我,我睇完之後好左好多,我明白到好多野真係嬲唔到幾多,而且自己根本就唔係,點解要搞到自己咁唔開心,我
做到既只係慢慢張件事沖淡。經過呢件事之後,我覺得MISS LAM對我呢講,已經唔係唔再係筆友,係我好好既朋友!
就黎考試啦,我就黎要開始溫書,玩埋今日,就要專心溫書,前個幾日,我玩得好勁,上堂有時都會傾計同玩,我好似放低左我乖既
一面,活躍左= =,希望我係邊堂活躍過既老師講聲對唔住@@過埋呢個假期就要專注讀書啦,玩得好投入,好放,我諗我呢次
考試我一定會好努力,但係我唔多想入A班,可能佢地太KAI啦,入左去都唔知會唔會變KAI子= =呀TIM唔好誤會,唔係話緊你= =
都係入番B班算,起碼有好多FRIEND,A班既話好驚比佢地話= =
我係B班既形象好似好強勁,好多人都服我,受歡迎少少,係呢班之中,自信都好似大D,A班雖然好,但係對自己太大壓力,迫自
己迫得好緊,我D咁既人,一定頂唔順,不如做一個自由人,比我發展下其他人,我老豆媽子雖然覺得我入番B班唔多好,但係我始終
覺得自己既選擇係最好,希望自己冇揀錯啦...
係SAMMI演唱會既TALK入面,我好同意呢一段既說話,自己行錯左,唔緊要,只要自己識得知自己做緊乜,行番岩就得!正如
紅綠燈一樣,要睇住自己做咩,唔好比自己行錯,錯得太深,就好難救到自己!呢段說話,對我既啟發好大,我諗幫到我唔少...
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