今日訓到８點就比呀爸叫醒左,,又係度講緊安叔叔ge野...呢個秘密要守一世ge時候,,大家ge心總會係唔舒服..一世ge秘密係最難守....又要講到我變左淚人啦....喊,,眼淚停唔到.....跟住呀爸去返工啦,,佢咁辛苦,,為左比好日子我地過..但到頭來死左３個親人..邊個會明佢個心點ge感覺...

之後我訓到１1點就起身啦..成個人好攰...琴晚我都係想搵人傾下計je點解個個都阻住我...唔比我搵你,,又呃我..你係咁唔想同我講野ge...點解你要比個希望我............我真係好唔開心...一方面我呀叔走左..一個我好錫ge叔叔..另一方面你就要咁對我...你地想我點呀....係你叫我唔好好似安叔叔咁執著..放開d..但係最後你對我又有幾放開..始終都係咁避忌....個個都係咁,,

我同安叔叔天生就係性格相似...我地一齊玩一齊開心...同佢ge心根本就可以好似連埋一齊咁...我怪自己點解果日我唔打個電話比佢,,,feｅｌ下佢出左事,,,,點解我會唔知佢出事,,,果日我成日都唔舒服..點解我唔知係佢有事,,,性格會累死人.??

下晝同呀媽睇完醫生...我個人真係有太多病啦,,心..胃..之後就去食野啦,,食完就返屋企啦...繼續寫我ge日記...每一句每一字,,好快就返學啦....好唔想返,,冇心機返啦...一個二個都咁對我ge..我做d咩都錯ge,,,個個阻止我同你講野..同你一齊...安叔叔ge事發生左就咩都話哂係我身上.....我只想搵個人開解下我都唔得囉....要經過咁多痛先會搵到你一次,,你以為我冇事就搵你呀..我真係出左事先搵你就太遲啦...你想ge我咪做囉.....

安叔叔..你係邊度,,我真係好掛住你..好想見你...我地個個個心變成咁,,你又忍心咩,,你又會覺得好咩..你天生一副固執性格..同我ge一樣...你可唔可以出黎話我知..你到底諗緊ｄ咩........!!

今朝訓到11點先起身..天氣有點冷....呢幾日個人完完全全想放棄...咩都唔願做ge,,,,究竟我係咪太掛住你...琴晚去左安叔叔屋企..見到ｄ相...曾經同你一齊去過ge泰國...留念ge相...一一望清楚...裝香..你有在我身邊嘛...

有時會想,,我唔怕..我寧願你出現在我身邊,,比我望多你幾眼....我好想見你....以前好錫我地ge安叔叔..一個大細路..好miｓｓyou..我心諗ge野你知道幾多...你唔會再怨嘛..我好想見你,,你係我身邊出現都好....琴晚又哭成淚人...

今朝得我同婷在家...我整野比佢食..呢個堂細妹,,宜家個個都會更疼她吧..因她家中發生這樣的事,,佢又咁細個,,咩都唔知..真令人擔心....我最擔心ge..都係幾個..爸爸..生叔叔..自己....姑姑...見住佢地一個一個咁傷心..安叔叔你又忍心見到我地咁咩..太衝動..一時控制唔到自己ge情緒..你知道個個為左你,,每一晚都喊幾多次先訓得著....

我地都就黎返學啦...我ge心情根本無法平伏...４年之內..我個心究竟受左幾多痛...你知道咩,,

下晝１點佢地就返黎啦..我都要走啦,,約左呀ling同蘭出去做project..我知你地個個都關心我架...多謝..家事,,無人能幫助...自己ge事自己最清楚....大家都有心就好啦.....再說得多,,只令我想得更多....

呢幾日大家ge心情都down到冇得再down....我ge身體更唔聽話..連續幾日係度胃痛....呢幾日個個都喊...保守呢個秘密..大家要守一生一世....已經過去....報紙都有賣....琴晚呀爸見到份報紙..更加係激動啦....我又喊,,,一個好叔叔..點解要咁傻....有咁多人關心你..你都要咁樣做.....我同你有好深ge感情...陪過我16年ge呀叔..我好掛住你.....

大家都唔會有開心ge面容出現....我唔可以好似安叔叔咁諗埋一邊,,記住...琴晚訓覺係度喊,,,收唔到聲,,,安慰..我呀爸..生叔叔..我..都唔得....大家都喊得好利害...好傷心呀...安叔叔你真係好傻呀....點解點解...我好錫你...過左去就冇得珍惜..好明白..爺爺女麻女麻....宜家安叔叔都走埋啦....我地個心究竟有幾傷....呢個假期,,大家都變得心情沉重...安慰ge說話聽得多...但係對我地黎講有幾幫助...我地ge心冇得補.......

我可以擔心d咩...一個一個....佢地更會黎...你更會做出一d令我傷心ge事....加上安叔叔ge事..我好辛苦..情緒更激動...有邊個可以幫到我喎.....唔好唔好....好辛苦呀,,,點解安叔叔要咁傻...諗埋一邊,,太偏激...呀呀呀呀呀...好想大叫...有邊個可以安撫下我,,見住個個親人咁傷心...我更唔好過...安叔叔我更唔捨得你...我好掛住你...喊左幾日啦..感情問題..文姐姐都好傷心..真係諗唔到你會去做傻事架....燒炭..一想起你ge樣子,,我更心寒...見到報紙ge相..心更痛...好想見返你同我地一齊玩..去旅行..好開心ge樣...好掛住你...點解要離開...好辛苦呀...擔心好多野...!!!眼淚一次又一次咁流落黎.....

安叔叔..我好掛住你...好唔捨得你..點解你要離開...好傻呀...喊..

今朝凌晨３點鐘..我地仲係大陸鄉下..收到一個電話...呢個電話影響得我地好大,,點解你要做傻事...我地大家都好關心你..你一句不說便走....你捨得我們了吧.......好huｒｔ．．安叔叔...我地好掛住你.....唔要信呢個係事實...唔要呀,,收到呢個電話..大家都醒左..除左佢個女,,大家都唔想比佢知.....聽到好多哭泣聲...之後要即刻換衫返香港...當時凌晨３點幾..出門口..上車,,走...大家都喊得好利害.....我更不敢去想一個陪我１６年ge呀叔..都係我最錫最好玩ge呀叔...竟然走上絕路...我好掛住你......點解點解...有咩唔可以解決....

今朝７點幾已經返到黎香港...大家神情都好重..不敢多說半句話...個個細路黎哂我屋企先,,,冇人會有心訓到覺...我就第一時間同呀哥講左呢個消息..琴晚我都嚇左一跳...真係唔想去信...我唔敢去信...好傷心...真的哭了..大家都哭了....

呀爸佢地去左睇安叔叔吧...我都唔清楚....我只知我真係好想去關心一下事情ge詳情..話比我知佢救得返..好唔好..話比我知係大話..好唔好....!!!見到個個個樣個心咁痛苦...我都一定更痛苦.....!!

請你返黎我身邊...做返一家人....救得返...一定要..唔要你走,,你就咁走..我唔願意..安叔叔..你仲有你個女要照顧...你同文姐姐發生咩事點解唔可以坐低傾好佢....宜家搞成咁..邊個會想..邊個會覺得好....!!？？

今朝訓到9點就起身啦,,臨起身前仲要比人嚇一嚇...真係嚇死人....起身之後換好衫就返屋企啦,,要執行李呀...聽日去鄉下byｅ山..真係好唔想返架....果間屋外表好令,,內在實在是會嚇得死人....仲要係果度過兩晚...真是糟糕,,,

出去等車返屋企...竟然等左超耐都未車喎...勁無奈,,,之後ｄ車一黎就黎三架...真過分...執左幾件衫..幾條褲,,１１點幾同呀媽去大中食lunｃｈ...買埋d日常用品....買左d零食...就返屋企啦....飲緊支天然藍苺汁..好味,,,

其實我已說得很白...點解最後ge你..唔會比一次機會我,,,你到底係有咩心態..想要我受苦...別人看得出我好辛苦..但為了誰我要受這種苦.....覺得值得,,還是委屈.......最終好想聽到你的一句答允....可惜你的情卻不願放在我身上.....

誰能明白我內心想說什麼....表面ge我不是最真的我...好後悔點解當時不可擁吻你,,我都甘心去等...不怕受別人的白眼,,全因我眼中只有你......