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2011 年 11 月 13 日 星期日  |
| 2011-11-13 |
分類: 未分類 |
its late at night.
im just sitting in front of my computer.
typing.
and i cant stop wondering how many ppl r doing the exact same thing, but each with a different purpose.
each with a different life story.
its so fascinating that all these ppl on the streets r from such different walks of life.
but sometimes it scares me to think about the world; or the universe.
i hate the lack of boundaries.
when i think about huge things like these i suddenly feel so lost and small.
i'm just a grain of sand in this world. its as if my life has no influence on anything.
but i hav to leave my mark in this world.
i dont care if i am just a random girl from a small city now.
i was born different
and i am going to be different.
failure is not an option.
feeling the power of words again.
love writing when listening to slow songs.
my soul feels so complete
and words just flow outta my mind onto this keyboard
havent had time to write in a long time.
i miss the times when my diary was my soul mate.
when i could just pour my every single thought into it.
but now
i have you.
:')
u can listen to my thoughts now
even the deepest, darkest thoughts.
finally, there is a person alive who understands me.
so many ppl think they know me
but they dont know shit.
no one in this world really knows who the real laura harrison is.
all i could do was talk to myself.
no one takes me seriously
and no one is willing to listen to what i hav in mind.
i try so hard to make ppl see past this fake mask of mine
my huge smile and constant hyperness
but they never see what's underneath all of this.
they dont take the time and effort to realize that
i am so much more than just a crazy girl.
i am so much more than just a girl who gets gd grades
i mean
i dont even like studying.
its just a way to make my way to my dream easier.
i hate all of this.
school ruins me in all ways
fuck chemistry and m1
my brain wasnt meant for this
wt fucking use does this hav in my future life?
please explain.
y am i doing all this.
when i get to uk
i will do psychology.
the human mind is what interests me.
not all these boring meaningless numbers and symbols.
get a life, ppl. seriously.
i think tht
in life
there r a few things tht r the most important
1. hav a dream. without a dream u r nothing but a group of living cells crawling on earth.
2. find a person who loves you and whom you love. love them with all ur strength.
3. live. dont just stay alive. live a life. find a purpose and try to change the world.
4. find a true friend. u dont need many, even one is enough. find someone who understands you, who is at the same intelligence level as you. grow tgt.
there should be more. but this is wt i hav in mind right now.
i was so lucky to meet you.
so lucky tht
i finally found THE PERSON.
THE ONE.
who knows my feelings and thoughts.
who loves me without any reserve.
who is my soul mate.
i love you.
i dont just randomly say this.
take my words seriously.
i will make you feel my love everyday.
be prepared
im fearless in love
when i decide to love
i wont reserve anything.
writing wayyy too much.
just a short conclusion on life up till now.
i feel like i hav stopped living for 2 months.
im coming back alive again
yay.
thanks to you.
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