還有四天便要入手術室了，心情是那麼複雜。雖然做了手術，癌症又可再次穩定下來，但係心裡實在有萬個不願。以往每次手術前的準備及面對進入手術室時的環境，一如戲劇一樣，堅強的我，想起來也顫抖，心寒。留院的日子也難過、納悶。唯望下星期的日子快快過去，可以快些回家安睡。

Four days later, I will be in the surgery operation room of PWH.  Altough after the operation, my cancer will be stablized, I hate to take the operation.  The reasons are that I am afraid the pre-operation procedures and being pulled into the operation room, the environment was so scary, like the films.  As strong as me,  really a tremble.  Also, hate the life during the staying period in hospital. Hope that time goes extra fast next week. I can have a sweet sleep at home after back from there.