貼地矇矇--灰

今日一早0835出門口返學,係葵芳啲地鐵車箱一落車就見到SAMIEL,佢同佢fd講緊波經,不過無叫佢,係葵芳等88c個陣見到呀欣,太遠佢見我唔到.

第1堂account,MISS話我唔做野,你教成點得啲,又話唔識可以問你,但一次都無教過我,after上life skill, 今日個topic係TIME MANAGEMENT,仲係我出去做my team啲代表講野,but我仲係好down唔想講野,就求其講d野交差算lu.

lunch time,係canteen食合味道,之後就係度自閉.

maths堂,DAVE打俾我,問我now點,我就約左佢wed出黎食飯(暫定),佢就話搵埋DICKY啦,then虧sir俾左d低b數黎計,做一陣無mood,唔做lu,financial堂,無野做吹下水&睇下佢地"咬手瓜",仲派埋份test,又肥左.

after school,一出lift就見到"資訊科技啲陳銘佳"(同一間中學,but唔同班啲),同佢去左wellcome行下,買左d合味道&炒麪王,無計啦,無$$呀,then同佢一齊返school啲locked擺埋d野,就去common room睇下有無人,見到呀夢sleeping,咁就同佳走lu.

after去7仔買雪糕食,wa.......索呀,係88c站見到呀傑同韻一齊等車走,問傑一齊走ma,佢said no,咁就算啦.

MTR STATION同佳傾聖誕去邊度蒲,我就話應該搵海豚啦,佢話約返中學佢個班d人去大尾篤bbq,我就話諗下先啦,不過多數都會去啲,if唔係我今年諗住係公牛場度sleep通頂算lu.

返到WONG TAI SIN,就即刻去新蒲崗LIBRARY,又搵野啦,搵完書去彩虹道睇陣波波,見到間廢柴SCHOOL(想知點解問我),仲食左暖暖啲豆腐花,打埋俾dicky約佢後晚食飯,食飽一陣就去"農場"啲WATSONS睇下有無target food,last拔足返去坐監lu.

返到去我諗我細佬仲驚緊昨晚我一拳打落個sofa度,攪到成間屋震哂個件事,but唔關你事啲傻豬~^^~.

頹廢

今日12點起身,喪操打字,終於都練到個net speed有28啦,差少少喳,after煮返昨晚啲餸尾黎食,因為我係home係一隻狗.

之後落拍園&蕙園睇睇,見無人就過公牛場打波波,一陣波蘿頭黎埋,同佢1on1 game,打黎打去都唔知打到幾多分,是但玩多幾球3分ko佢算lu,佢話要go home做homework,我就係度講:commit suicide啦......唉........灰啦........唉.........有人嫌我打波廢啦....................唉..............!,跟住同佢過左拍園,佢仲係度嗌走,我又講返同樣啲野,係度泵佢波鐘,同佢say88之後返公牛場自閉,一陣4眼叔黎左,原來佢開工開通頂,一直sleep到而家,佢睇陣波就走lu,我就係度睇小朋友玩,過一陣玩下波仔咁啦,無耐MAN黎左,after,過左陣就聽到我細佬(小魔怪)把聲,我就變返隻狗咁跟主人返home坐監,去想人拎自己去人道毀滅,攪到自己人唔似人,鬼唔似鬼咁,唉..........!

今晚係home自閉左陣,打日記,我fd有事icq搵我,我老豆見到又刻意係度阻住我,我用唔到部腦,攪到我個fd打我手電,but我都係接唔到,攪到佢打去my home先搵到我,我真係開始火到爆,又霸住部腦唔係用,咁like阻我,不如而家打返場呀,我唔會再好似細個咁俾你又廢手又廢腳呀,又食埋d餸尾,我覺得以我而家啲體力未必會輸俾你wor,你夠膽就同我打返場,最多打到拆屋ja,mei俾人知道我有練體能wor,仲係殺人機器tim,黎呀!!!!!!!!!!!

今日同波蘿頭講左遲d都係出返去打波啦,再係竹園打落去,我愈黎愈唔捨得我同呀叔啲history,同埋成日都見到d好眼冤啲野.

~啊彌陀佛~

ALONE

凌晨同豆&海豚傾密計,都係講埋d我仲有咩想做,早上8點起身,0945出門口,我老母見到我話要溫書,仲慘過叫佢去死,途中係王仲銘near俾呀婆好惡咁叫我買旗,i said no,之後去一位太太度買旗.

1030係新蒲崗自修室開始自修&自閉,見到棟&棟嫂,間中係度諗,自己用咩方法死好呢.

lunch去肥仔記食,之後返上去再黎過,4點走,一出新蒲崗廣場就見到娛樂痕,好down無叫佢,去行康景,after去大眾買野(日記簿),返竹園個陣係MTR STATION見到DAVE,wa...好耐無見,仲玩佢叫佢得閑出去打波波,佢話唔得閑,我就指住佢隻乸話"又真係好忙啲",同DAVE said88,電電響起,娛樂痕打黎,仲以為佢早頭見到我,原來佢係上左蕙園打波波,順便搵我一齊打波波&聚下舊.

返到去蕙園見到佢&佢fds同可樂班死仔&老朱打緊波,我叫佢之後上公牛場搵我,then去拍園見到歐陽叔,話埋俾佢知下邊朱叔係度打緊波,接住去公牛場,無人,返轉頭過拍園坐低自閉,一陣歐陽叔落埋去,我就企係呀叔咁多年黎都企開啲位置睇佢地打波波(so hurt),一陣再返公牛場,經過見到MAN,我就去左"DO""DO"睇小朋友玩&睇書,打過俾痕,等得太耐返去搵佢,佢迷路了,教佢上返黎,同佢傾左好多野,last電電急call,cut線等多陣都走lu.

dinner,同細佬玩鬼臉&打交咁一路食一路玩,我地2個傻左.

灰到貼地

今早maths堂返0930,我1005先返到去,but果份attend list都仲未傳到我個班,下次再late多d,之後諗住搭lift上ANGEL堂,but唔駛上,咁我就有lunch time for 5 hrs.

我同LING MA、KATHY、WINNIE、BELL、SAMIEL、ZELL、權(終於有第1次啦)、KELVIN、TONY、TIKO、KEN、IVY、IVYand夢成班去荃灣唱 kk,時間關係就搭的去lu.

去到分2間房,今日把聲好唔掂呀,maybe我太down啦.(愈唱愈灰心...)

唱完再搭的返去上FINANCIAL,呢堂我好專心,因為我驚呢排成日諗得太多野會隨時做傻事,after school,去wellcome買野飲,then去搭小巴,係個站見到呀欣&呀麟.

返到WONG TAI SIN去新蒲崗LIBRARY搵書仔,今日終於有收獲啦,but仲未搵齊野,仲要去多幾次,after去彩虹道睇人打學界,因為見d人無用speed打波波,so索性同一時間睇哂2場,又睇得切wor,呇a打得唔係好快,對眼&耳都追得上,不過都屎左lu,睇緊個陣見到我以前啲師兄,佢係余近卿當年3塔之1啲風雲人物,我未讀到form1佢已經畢左業,我係摩士同佢打波打到食哂塵呀,佢d level比我高好多,我企埋去等於一個廢人,睇佢好似認得我咁,but我無叫佢,無打波費事lu.

跟住我就alone爬返去lu,返到home見到我另一個銀包貼左張"我愛你+心"啲貼紙,我細佬俾我啲,不枉我教你做運動~^^~.

成日都無講野

今日返1130,1045先出門口,係lift口見到娘親.

返到去發覺原來我仲未做哂homework,抄唔哂,第1堂account,MISS檢查homework,我用我醒目啲腦袋loading,就攞左TONY個份俾佢睇,咁就ko左啦,呵呵~^^~.

lunch time for 3hrs,無人理我就alone去locker攞合味道,食左陣成班終於落到黎,就一齊去canteen食,我仲邊行邊食tim,食飽坐係度自閉,到夠鐘去上EFP.

after school,係小巴站見到呀麟,一齊搭車走,係葵芳MTR STATION同佢say 88,,我就alone搭MTR,返到WONG TAI SIN係"農場"啲PARK'N SHOP行左陣,after去BEBO睇陣33,because我仲想買多件齋white T-shirt,but有d公仔都唔mind,可惜無心水,就行多陣爬返去坐監lu.

成日係school講左2句野

今日係葵芳MTR STATION個面搭88d返學,落車又係見到TONY,but唔想講野(好辛苦呀),so我一樣自己行返去school,係sbi搭lift出面見到IVY,同佢講成日第1句野,"我去交水費,你上去先",ANGEL堂又係一個人坐埋一邊自閉,RECESS返入課室時,ANGEL幫我開門,我就講成日last個句,"唔該".

after school or lunch time for 3hrs,一個人食合味道,之後上reading room自閉,差唔多夠鐘,落去common room曬太陽,after去hall test,呢個financial test我又死緊,我理科就叻ja.

after test, 返WONG TAI SIN,路經基德諗返好多小學啲往事,有D傷感,過左馬路就見到糖係HO LAP出黎,then去左新蒲崗library還埋本書,跟住走去萬寧睇下有無野食岩我胃口,無買到野,路經開樂粉麪茶餐廳,記起好耐之前同豆黎過lunch,個次都傾左好多野,then去彩虹道睇下有無人打波波,見到有人比賽就落去買暖暖啲豆腐花,落樓梯個陣見到MAN係對面上樓梯,買完上返去睇波波,上樓梯又見到MAN係對面落緊樓梯,睇睇下波見到DICKY,打俾佢say個hi,問佢有無打波,之後收線,睇埋場波先返去,用左10分鐘先行返到home坐監,慢左好多,廢人!!!

成日都oh哂嘴

今日又係唔想上堂,又係9點先出門口,出左葵芳MTR STATION,見到88c站好多人,就去搭88d,係美景落車見到TONY,就一齊返去,10點返到school,個打字test俾 人玩左獲,don't care!!!我下次都一定係pass啲.

lunch time,去canteen食合味道,食飽齋坐,幾乎無講過野,after去wellcome行下,行完再返canteen搵佢地,1分鐘都無過左common room,睇下有無位,打俾ZELL叫佢地過黎,佢地黎到我一樣無講野,sleep左陣睇LING MA、ZELL、IVY&KELVIN"鋤d",接住上去上ANGEL堂.

ANGEL堂,我自己坐埋一邊自閉,ANGEL過黎問候我,俾野我做,but我太down了,一陣sleep左.我唔係唔想做,其實係我身體有d事同埋我......(自己問我啦,呢d野唔可以俾太多人知)

after school,第1時間去交水費,出返黎無哂人,自己搭lift,去完locked即就.

返到WONG TAI SIN行左陣廣泰,之後行埋PARK'N SHOP,見有D咩咩野有平(自己問我啦,呢d野唔可以俾太多人知),mei入貨low,講得啲有chip、麪,last爬返去坐監lu.

無哂精神做人

0時0分,昨晚啲4腳蛇仲未走,又係係我頭頂啲天花板周圍爬,呢次因為我訓唔著,就睇下佢究竟想去邊度玩,佢last入左我間房,3點鐘我先去sleep.

今早8點3俾電電鬧鐘噪醒,唔想上堂,so我9點先出門口,原本0930上堂,我10點先返到,miss叫我寫名係張late list度,我扮野無寫,之後搵個位坐低.

lunch time for 3hrs,好悶,係canteen食合味道,一陣就返common room,又係"鋤d".

maths堂,做堂課,d數好淺,做做下費事做,搵權個份抄算lu.

FINANCIAL,做埋d homework,then同大長金(miss)傾下project d野.

after school, 去common room食合味道,食飽就打左一部份啲日記,after同ZELL&KELVIN去canteen,仲食多個合味道tim,聽佢地吹下水,我講左12句野咁啦,因為我太down啦.

last返去坐監,一入到門口又俾人亂咁鬧我,你地鍾意啦,還點我都擺唔到幾耐啲啦.

昨晚發左個夢,就係同呀叔打波波,1on1 game,個夢好真實,就好似我之前岩岩撞鬼個陣啲情景一樣,不過呢次我係羸左,but我知呀叔你係讓我啲~^^~.

開始感到自己無左感情

凌晨4點鐘,見到隻4腳蛇係我頭頂啲天花板,我第1時間做左個明智啲決定,就係...............合埋對眼繼續sleep.

早上9點鐘,手電鬧鐘叫醒我,after換33去新蒲崗自修室,經過摩士網球場,見到個"的飾"小妹妹中波餅,去到自修室見到周家威(小學同學),打個招呼就行入d睇下仲有無靚位,見到榴槤輝,咁我就過去同威一齊溫書仔啦,另一邊隔離係讀潔心啲姐姐,因為我見到佢係school借啲書有寫度,過左陣,呀棟&E.T.都黎埋,佢地仲係咁勤力,好野!

1點鐘,同威say 88就去LOK FU sell埋d廢物走,then,去天馬苑啲同開心食lunch(中學個陣成日幫趁),個老闆娘初時留意唔到我,之後要叫佢先知,唉..............,識左咁耐,灰哂啦,我都forget埋~^^~,係度諗返好多以前中學個陣d野.

跟住返拍園睇下有無人,再返過公牛場睇,打俾威,佢話馬上黎,我就go home擺埋d野,攞埋波波落公牛場打波波,一陣又過拍園,途中見到歐陽叔,就一齊去拍園,見到老朱,我坐陣過返公牛場,一陣又過返拍園,威打黎話唔黎得,算啦,唔緊要,下次打過low~^^~,多左個人,就係4眼叔個囡囡,打左一場波,打完之後囡囡同我講,個2條粉暢走哂步,(呢d mei就係傳說中啲"靚波微步"low).

after返公牛場坐,得閑玩下波波,睇見人地2父子打波波,玩得好開心,我都好想呀,可惜我無咁啲機會,一陣見到MAN黎左,無耐蔡路過,我就忍唔住問佢拜左呀叔未,佢話仲未知葬左係邊度,我就叫佢記得記得搵埋我呀, 唔提都好d,一提我又發作啦,又係度諗野,傻左.

靜到死咁濟

今日好早起身,不過全家係度,費事臉阻阻,扮sleep算數,12點佢地出哂去,好野,溫書啲時間又到啦,一路對住部電腦查字典一路聽歌仔,本身已經好down,我仲特登聽埋d 勁down啲歌,攪到自己更加灰.

4點半到,落公牛場打波波,打左陣見到MAN路過,過左陣去拍園睇下有無人打波,見到老朱、歐陽叔&4眼叔,見4眼叔個樣,一睇就知佢傷左啦,問下佢就知道佢俾班唔識打波波啲粉腸整親,after佢跟我過埋公牛場打波,我就打俾波蘿頭叫佢落黎,同4眼叔玩陣波,波蘿頭到啦,無耐,1on1,4眼叔就走先,88.

同波蘿頭打埋d唔知咩波,又唔係and1招,總之我地2個都傻左,打到6點3到走人,行個陣波蘿頭同我講,我地1on1個陣MAN俾人咩咩呀,仲好過分tim,識佢咁耐,我未見過佢咁嬲啲,我更係答佢知啦,我打左咁耐波,我聽都聽得出d波聲係咩事啦,last返去坐監.

呀叔!竹園無左你係唔得啲,d人愈黎愈咸啦,得我一個做唔到d咩,公牛而家廢左啦,連自己個場有d咁啲事發生,but我咩都無做過,好無用呀,不如我打"閉"埋隻手去算啦,還點我而家打波都無用過自己d技術啲,係度獻世咩???