I  am so sorry for the feeling now,after  finally  finishing the "GG" and  reading what U wrote.

U know what? Chuck is very sttractive to me.  And the attraction  seems to have met  before .

Do U still remember U said I  always knew U ? Yeah,U were right . I know U.  Always have,always will, just as a outsider. But as an insider, I never know U.   It's U  who made it and admitted what U had done.

Apparently,U forget the "date".  I thought I were fucking do not care about it. But why I mention it again?  Well,actually I deed feel a little sorry for that. But truely just a little.  U know I've been used to it.

I have been used to your everything.

U said that the wine,drugs and sex,these three things are always connected. Love is a game to you.

Then to me,when every time I think of U,it's just like U have a drink and drugs and then  can not help having the fucking sex with sb.  Sth could be the wine,and the drugs is U.

I am an addict. Even luckly I've been better and better,but until now,I know how hardly it for me to come off it thoroughly.

I never wish I could forget U. Because I know it's meaningless. I could still remember U,but not love U.

It's not love.

P.S. I am always here .