Yes, we did, I allowed, I have arranged, I wanted it that way.

There is no regret, we felt happily, deeply enjoying the gulity pleasure.

The pass leaves with light speed, the future is far far away, only this moment is real.

Because this is the first one, I should be allowed to make mistakes, to not go to the target directly, take a longer way, for seeing more, I suppose.

This is a good one, not a right one, so what? I am still young, I can still wander in the forest.

Only if I can, I don't want to hurt anyone, I don't intend to, to hurt someone innocent.

I guess, they will make up again, they have been, through out this year, I am only a short romance, I don't care.

I need the first exprience, to know what it is like, it should be, how it can be, and what I like, I don't, I desire, I expect.

He is really gentle, cares about me a lot, more than I should have.

My mother loves me the way a Chinese mother should, but I want more than family love.

The first night, if I don't put it down, I might forget it one day, sadly.

We went to a hotel, we were both excited and also quite nervous, so we went to the pub to have drinks. Then returned to the room, took off all the clothes. 

This is the first time I showed my body to a man, I was embrassed. He told me I have a beautiful body, as usually, he was worrying not giving me the best first exprience and would hurt me.

He kissed me from my chest to the bottom, and stayed, to make me excited. Put on the French Letter and tried to entre, it was hard.

He put some cream and tried again, of course it hurted. Only light blood on the pillow can be seen, after few movements he stopped. I went to toilet and saw more blood in the toilet bowl.

We then went to sleep. It can't be a good exprience of sex, but a touching memory of being cared.

In the midnight we tried agian, this time is a bit easier. Then I tried to be on him, it failed, we returned to normal position. He did it until the end, I supposed, I didn't enjoyed the process, because of the pain.

In the morning, I was still bleeding, but less, we did it again. Then went out for breakfast, Chinese dim sum.

After breakfast, we tried the one on the table, it was too high for him, so we returned to the bed.

Before the check out we took a shower together in the small bathroom, then a bath in the massage bath tub.

Over all is a good exprience that having everything I wanted, the partner cared about me more than his desire.

Since then, almost every day, except few days on my period, things are getting better and better, now I enjoy a lot, was very frustrated at the first 26 times, that I would never enjoy the process and be a good partner.

Anyway, seems we are cooperating good on this, so this relationship will continue without problems on this issue, at the moment.