覺得自己好癈.....個電腦功課到要present都未做到出嚟..我想放棄依科....到下一年retake...不過唔知阿sir會唔會鬧.....想死想死想死想死.....好似生存都冇乜意義.....就係因為冇人陪住讀書....中學戈時d同學唔知點呢??掛住佢哋....或者我應該返教會啦....唔係會鬱死.....
晚上11點幾...
由於情緒太低落....覺得真係好自卑...好內疚....所以咪決定走咗下午戈堂電腦....同阿sir講聲要走堂...做唔到個demo....(可能我係喺度向佢求救...)阿sir問我係咪其他科太忙....我一度哽啞..答不上話...咪話要先去洗個臉...再回去搵佢....一坐坐咗半個鐘心情先平伏返.....好耐都冇試過情緒失控.....希望冇人發覺啦....可能近排真係太多野諗....之後返去搵阿sir...同佢傾咗一陣....同佢講唔係科目難.....係得自己一個讀....so.....又失禮lo.....超魚......阿sir應該知咩事...跟住阿sir介紹個師兄我識....叫我有唔識可以問佢啦....不過我唔鐘意麻煩唔多熟既人lo....阿sir陪多一陣...幫手諗咗個題目....就走咗....咁我咪用心咁一個人奮鬥lo.....之後都係做唔晒....不過阿sir話一定要去persent啦....咁咪去lo...做幾多per幾多wo.....睇晒全部組之後....我又諗到其他題目...阿sir都話唔錯.....教多一陣就走.....最後Lily嚟咗接我去佢屋企........食飯傾計睇碟.....返到屋企又俾人鬧.....不過都好既.....今日點都過咗去.....好耐都冇咁發洩過.....雖然到依家條氣仲未順返晒.....次次都係咁.....好樣衰呀......不過都係寧願自己一個匿埋...好過俾人睇到.....我要好似劍咁堅強先得啦.....
P.S:我就是不爽那個吳浩跟Lily在一起啦......人又不是很好看...并且風評不佳啦....只是家裏有錢而已.....這樣的人有甚麼好的....就是長得高了點而已...車車車車....
睇返以前d相..覺得:自己怎麼長成這個樣子呀??太難看了.......現在應該有點改進了吧....
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