cried... finally...

appearently I'm not as strong as I thought,
nor am I as strong as other people thought,
nor was I able to live up my outer appearence

for once, I just want to have a shoulder to cry off from,
arms that can give me a sense of safeness,
a silence voice to just stay by me, quietly...

I never thought I would actually cry in school,
in front of people, even though there're only a few

tears... that I can no longer hold in,
my heart slowly fills up, and overflows

I do not want sympathy, nor do I want pity,
I am who I am, for those who truely know me,
yet there is a gap in my heart, an empty room,
closed tite with locks, and will never fill no matter what...