仲記得上個禮拜日........超辛苦啊~~~

點解???

呵呵......星期五果晚胡子打電話俾我,同我傾左成兩個幾鐘....其實我真係好多謝佢肯聽我傾訴~

嗰次收到我最唔鍾意嗰個message之外......難得光仔肯打電話俾我安慰下我....我仲要喺度發神經...

竟然cut佢線...仲即時關埋機添.....我究竟係度做乜???我就黎痴線喇.....

跟住就喊左成日....嗰日係繼二月以黎喊得就犀利既一日啊......嗰日難得收左聲之後,再喺度諗.....

原來我連一個可以傾訴既人都無,,,,,,秋霞喺大陸....soso忙於工作......我激嬲左光仔.....同杉分左開....

同林再無朋友做.....胡子嗰日都好唔開心咁喺我面前喊左,,,,唔通我仲要增加佢既唔開心咩???媽媽呢???

媽媽喺大陸忙於工作而無時間陪我.....究竟....我可以同邊個講我好唔開心???我可以同邊個講每日掛個笑容喺臉上既我其實真係好唔開心啊.........!!!!!...之后難得收左聲既我又再喊個不停........

嗰幾日我真係度日如年.....

喺星期六嗰晚.....胡子打電話俾我....我張我既唔開心一次過發泄晒出黎....個心舒服唔少...原來我地大家都好唔開心...終於.....

.佢約左我出街...................................飲酒.......

我地去買酒嗰陣竟不約而同咁大家都執左四觀.........

跟住就買左幾包暑片坐喺公園度飲.......飲完第一觀...有d難飲.....

第二觀...有d 興奮....

第三觀....暈喇...

第四觀....發晒顛咁係度大笑.....想喊但喊唔出.....煩惱???抛開一d喇......

暈下暈下咁同胡子爬喺公園張台度,,,,,行唔到..仲攞個電話亂咁打...跟住想嘔......

最終都係嘔左.....嘔完之后仲想再嘔...但係又嘔唔出...好辛苦啊....嗰種感覺我到依家都一清二楚啊~~~

跟住仲要一個人番屋企~~~我都唔記得我係點樣捱到番屋企咖.....我剩係知瞓醒之后個頭超痛.....從未試過咁辛苦....但係幾好啊...

起碼我喺嗰一刻瞓得好冧........但係嗰個禮拜日我真係過得好辛苦....聽日仲要番學先得咖.....唉.......

其實我唔想飲咖.....但係....我心入面既不快我無從發泄啊......我可以點做????除左飲酒麻醉自己之外點樣先無煩惱???