fds
i need fds to watch drama with me, yup not film
hard to tell u how is my complicated feelins,
though apa is acepted me already, buti still not ready
it's just far away,,,far away
so i go to church, read the bible hope it'll help/save me
yup,, partly it's works,,
but finally i just afarid to be alone
i dont like change places, i dont like make so many new fds
somehow i think i'm a weriod
i'm losting
though reading books, watching films, arts,,,,,,are able to turn me in peace
but i cant turn on my cd player all the time,,
LOL,,,~~~~~~~~~~~
since form 3/4, i just wanna get in to the apa
but now i just afarid to change my life style,,
yayayaya~~ really what a big change,,,,,,,
i cant imange how will i be
u might said "just be yourself la, no matter what they say ga,,"
but come on,,,,,,u think u really couold do??
now i'm going school again, to apply the gront loans form
maybe i just think to much,,maybe everything will change fine/ nice/ good in just September
i dont know but ijust have sorrow
ya,, a big sorrow, a big trouble
i dreamt
that girl i told u before guys
in the dream,,
though i knoe she had boyfd already
but i still not mins, she also
so we leave from the big house (though i dont why we appear in the big house before =] )
then we take train
i wanna find a set for her
but were turn around/ back
she's just vaninshed
then i weak up
that 's
n i dream a lots recently
partly abt my past
girls
my secret, like family problems, that boy i told u guys before,,,,,
n i dont see that sny imagination in my dream
it's fucking sad,,
i dream,, but it's not a dream
u have no creation
u just blem urself
u just regret urself
oh fuck me
i blem myself even i was dreaming?????
but did i do something wrong?
why i have to blem myself?
hug?
"forget abt it, it's what teenage do" i talk to myself all the time like this
n i find out something as well
no start, no plain
though it's sweets/ fascinating
but u never how is the end
fuck me,,,always complain
but i really have to go,,
i live in tai wai,,,but why the school is in the gum chung ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
soooooooooooooo farrrrrrrrrrr aaaaaaaaawayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
fuck me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!