no start no end

but needed is needed, who is who, how to how to how,,,,,,

i'm not done with night( lying)

i'm vvvvvvvvvvery happy is, i discovered that ka is look like norah jones and the girl in" pushing daissies" before,,,,hehe

in this 2/3 days trip, i was listening norah jones song in the ferry, camping with ka, watched" pushing daissies" at night,,,,oh god it's pretty nice~~~

and i have my secretly magically words to wake up myself, that's" steven, johnny, nud,,,,"

i dont know why, but i think it's the best way for me in this moment

steven, it's happy that u'll having a show in bc coming, but i wont watch that la,,coz i really know, though i need it, but i cant take it so tight, like cigarette, right?

ok, i know u have no idea what am i talking about, but that's fine, coz adam is just talk to himself, and steven is only steven, he cant show up his-self out of the screen, out of the script, fuck me

i'm going mad, coz i set up so many rules dor myself, though i done it pretty nice, but i know, i'm goning the highest, after that, i've to visit the doctor, and no more books, film, musics can help,,the sences of art, of green life will vanished

i like to asking myself a qustion like this, "tangyuting do u think u're able to feed ur family?", "tangyuting, u've so many names, dont u shamed?", "tangyuting, will u keeping ur honesty till dead, or being adult?",,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i just cant forgive myself, lets hating me, it's help to build a better me,,,,,what the fuck am i talking about,,,,,,no need to think what did i say, coz the key is,,typing makes me feel better, feel nice,,,,,n that's good

thx god, i like u, n u know that, i'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaad =p