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真係好辛苦ar~~點解會咁伽,,,我真係累了,,,本想諗住收左成績表,,,比媽子話完之後就俾d心機讀,,,唔好再傻落去,,,都唔好再存有任何幻
想,,,但就係唔知點解會矠生呢d事,,,我自問衣家仲可以做d乜?最重要既都失去左喇,,,我仲可以點啊?只係得閑同d男仔玩下,,,傾下計,,,有
時同佢地去打波喈,,,咁都有罪,,,衣家可以講得係同佢打對台,,,真係好煩,,,好累啊,,,都唔知佢想點,,,我真係好想知,,,何為叫姣??姣既定義
係D乜?既然係佢話同我玩,,,我同你玩,,,你衣家唔想同我玩,,,俾你講到咁,,,唉,,,真係唔想理了,,,真的好累,,,我真係冇力喇,,,衣家面對既唔
單純係功課同成績,,,仲有每日對戰,,,琴日,,,睇左林綺雯打既,,,唔單止係嬲同激咁簡單,,,當時過左冇耐,,,我仲覺得自己好孤獨,,,從來都未
試過呢只感覺,,,即使係慈慈要離開我,,,我都只係傷心,,,但都冇啊種感覺,,,直至衣家都係,,,當然我第一個諗起既係,,,,,,慈慈,,,我唔係希望d
乜,,,但當時真係好想見佢,,,或者聽下佢把聲都好,,,唉~~算算算,,,真係唔想諗,,,但係偏偏要諗,,,我真係好想轉學,,,之前有所顧慮,,,但我諗
衣家都應該冇喇,,,都唔應該有了,,,如果我真係轉左,,,又會有幾多人唔想我轉??我諗我衣家就好似徐敏當初要轉咁,,,大把人想佢走,,,
= =””但我諗我冇咩機會轉到,,,呢兩日同阿昇一齊放學搭地鐵,,,我問佢,,,有冇諗過轉校,,,佢話f.4=-=”轉番去西環,,,玩野,,,轉到咁遠,,,之後
睇番佢以前d相,,,好搞野,,,
放學係我最開心既時候,,,呢排又上番網,,,為既唔係咩,,,只係去論壇,,,我可以係論壇同佢地傾計,,,因為我發覺,,,我睇左果d野之後,,,d人又
唔明白我,,,個人真係可以心跳加速,,,就算我再聽w-inds既歌都唔可以平復番,,,真係唔知可以點,,,星期6晚,,,同師兄係論壇講到12點幾先
訓,,,
今日,,,去左柴灣打波,,,好彩唔多人,,,諗住將呢排既唔開心發洩係運動度,,,唔再同佢地嘈,,,打打下,,,一班男仔帶住絛女黎踩場,,,(但絛女連
射波都唔得,,,=-=)咁多場唔踩,,,係要踩我地個,,,蝦我地係女仔咩,,,人地個場得3個豆丁都唔去,,,我地5,6個啵,,,無奈,,,算,,,由佢地,,,照打,,,
打打下又整親了,,,都算,,,照打,,,打得多有好處,,,好似大力左,,,之後佢地開場,,,咁我地去興華再打過,,,打到咁上下,,,好似落雨咁就走左,,,
番到去同惠敏地行下,,,心情總算好番d,,,但都唔係好,,,可以跑過,,,感覺好d咯,,,
行到咁上下就番屋企,,,睇tv,,,衝完涼再上網,,,睇到d野,,,唔多happy,,,但之前既心情無哂,,,睇到佢留言,,,都唔知點,,,總覺得有d好似被屈既
感覺,,,唔好受咯,,,不過我諗都係遲早既事,,,其實,,,我都應該知道結果會點,,,總有一日會變,,,總有日會結束,,,我唔可以再自己呃自己,,,我
知人係人心目中既形象一但破壞就唔可以再變番以前咁,,,但係,,,我至到衣家,,,我都願意係佢面前做番一個乖乖地既女仔,,,我人生中,,,
只會係3個人面前做乖乖女,,,就係爸爸媽媽同,,,慈慈,,,唔理人地點諗喇,,,可以呢d就叫扮野喇,,,我認既,,,因為佢地係我心見中有重要既地
位,,,今日睇完之後,,,冇心機食飯,,,等敏華食完,,,我求其食左小小,,,兩分鍾唔洗,,,成肚冤屈邊度食得落,,,唉~~算喇,,,唔想再煩,,,真係筋疲
力盡喇,,,我再冇再多既力去同佢地嘈,,,之後同腳指地係論壇度講野,,,佢話呢d叫呃post喔,,,12點34分,,,最夜一晚,,,天日同佢地再去打
過,,,我唔想再諗,,,剛剛啊wing留左言,,,我知佢係度話緊我,,,但佢無指名,,,咁算喇,,,都無謂同佢嘈,,,同番人渣同迪迪,,仲有媽媽傾qq,,,真係
好想喊,,,但我無,,,我只知,,,唔可以俾媽媽失望同擔心我,,,所以我會盡量用一切方法痲醉自己,,,
因為,,,我本以為可以令我開心既校園已經唔可以再比我任何直得信任既野,,,我係啊度,,,已經冇左可以再講到心事既人,,,同地方,,,
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