oh god! what is going on?! I am really upset.
I don't know why. I always feel disappointed.
July has gone and I do for nothing.
I always stay at home watching TV, sleeping, eating.
What's up? I am wasting my time, wasting my tide.
However, I am strong in heart but weak in power.
I don't have energy. I don't have aggressiveness.

Oh man. I want to be the best but I am not!
I don't have the talent. I am not a diligent person.
I always get a great pressure but it cannot boost me.
How can I do then? Wait for nothing? Wait for eating?
OR wait for dying? The world is dark and terrible.
Everyone says that every child must be educated for nine years.
Parents say that you MUST get into the university.
Is it essential? Who KNOWs! This society is really BAD.
We MUST reform this terrible society.
It makes people out of breath. I absolutely hate it!

OH, Mum! I think I will make you cry. I am really lazy.
I am not your good girl. DAD, MUM. You will be rather disappointed.
I feel hopeless. I don't think I am living in a meaningful life.
I lose my confidence. I lose all the things. How can I do?
Sometimes, I want to end up my life. I don't want to grow up.
It makes me pain. I am not happy although I can smile easily.
That's not true. It's not really hard to gain happiness.
But, in my life, it is difficult. I always tied by you.
You hurt me a lot but you think that it is good for me.
My heart is broken. I don't have any hope in this family.
Everything drives me crazy, make me out of breath.
I really want to take a long break and don't want to know anything.

DAD, MUM! DON'T TROUBLE ME! DON'T BLAME ME!