呢排過得唔知點咁...做d乜...都冇乜心機...成個人都變得lazy左..
人生冇左目標...我想讀好書...但係又覺得好煩...唔想理...
比心機聽...但係就又唔願諗野...踢一下...行一下...自己唔識做..
就唔去理...唔去做...開始放棄...冇晒衝勁...心情好差...
有心冇力...我覺得好攰...成日都好想訓教...上堂係聽左書..
但係我轉個頭就唔記得...我唔知點算好..屋企對我期望好大..
我對自己既期望都好大...但係我往往做得差...唔理想..
雖然話今次exam我係滿意..但係同以前相比...我真係好差..
有時候諗到呢度...真係好傷心....有時候真係好想喊..
但係都強忍淚水...無論有咩事...有咩唔開心...
我都忍住唔喊...屋企有咩野..返到學校都係笑的...
我唔想將自己既唔開心帶比人地...唔開心係一件好難受既事..

今日我補習...唔知點解d野係識既..但係問到我個時..
我就唔識答...我覺得個ar sir有時好煩..講埋好多費野...
佢同我講既野(唔關phy既事)...對於我黎講...我係識嫁囉..
佢唔講..我都已經識...睇書亦都睇過...佢既道理我都明白..
但係我唔知自己既問題出左係邊度...我中4開始就唔想諗野..
我覺得好煩...我有時愈想諗野...個腦就愈諗唔到野...
反而空白一片...我真係開始好討厭計數la...
我唔鐘意諗野la...我對住d數...呆左...我知道...
要成功..就需要苦幹...但係我開始逃避現實...唔想去努力..
我開始變得lazy...唔想理..唔想做...只想活於一個假既世界..

其實人生係點樣...真係唔知...而家好地地一個人...
聽日可能出到街比車撞死左...聽天由命好了...