心知不妙....太高估自己....琴晚驚到訓唔著....
今日....成日都down down地....今朝....
依然係之之既爸爸車埋我去考試....
咁大個女....第1次係一個月內坐咁多私家車...@@
開始習慣....冇咁易暈... =] 真係唔該晒之之同之之dad..
去到....早左45mins到..-.- 勁早...係度hea陣....
feel到自己好緊張囉...琴晚訓唔著教...家下又好驚...
好擔心....做完paper1都知唔多得嫁啦...冇c啦一定...
期望好大既我....個心又沉左落去...maths後...我好驚...
冇晒信心....冇晒heart....做埋paper2....還可以既...
1點幾返到元朗...食米線...then去嘉城hea過....
去左珠珠度...佢有個客...係aunt級...聽佢講完d野...
我真係唔知點咁...我個心好矛盾...個姨姨講到佢真係好開通..
一比較之下....我feel到我parents真係好鬼嚴...
令我好辛苦...但,,佢地既目的都係為我姐....so...唔知點
成個下午勁諗埋呢d野囉....一諗就諗落好多野...
唔單止屋企囉...同d同學/fd...我係合唔到群...傾唔埋...
可能係屋企令到我咁...亦都可能係自己孤立左自己...
真係好矛盾....我想返工...屋企話唔好...點解唔好?專心讀書喎
我feel到自己已經唔能夠集中精神...家下成日遊魂....
load野又load得慢....冇晒f3個時d衝勁....迫唔到自己讀書..
我既人生又頓時失去方向...個人好down...好灰...
諗唔到自己有咩理想....唔係個個人都有理想ga咩?
我發覺....我係曾經有過理想....但...冇好好將佢記住...
因為...一講....屋企就say no...我已經放低左...可以點?
呀森講得好岩...人一出世都比呢個社會安排左個命運...
返學-->讀書-->返工-->拍拖-->結婚-->生仔-->養仔-->老-->死
無論有咩理想...都要搵到錢先...要搵到錢...就要有學識...要有學識..
就要讀好書....人生...好煩...好忙...好疲累....god! I loss my way.
前景...一片空白...
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