i've never had this feeling before..
 

i'm so confused..i don't know why i am so afraid
 

i dont want to be looked down

i'm not an intellingt student.. i'm so stupid..

i need to spend a lot of time to study and prepare..

but this time.. no matter how much effort i put.. i won't get a good result..i think

actually i'm a positive person.. everytime i meet some difficulties..

i try to persuade myself.. it's not that hard as you think..u can do it! u can pass through..

i've tried this method... but it does't work this time...

i am so bewildered that i can't concentrate on my work....

10/30 is a very meaningful day to me...  i don't want anything bad happen at that day

1st term report card is very important..i know.. there's nothing i can do except studying...

but i am desperate.... a lot of pressure... a lot of  problems in front of me

i hope things will turn up..i hope so