I haven't got that courage to tell you my story with a pretentious tone.

Perhap the fact that I dare not to smoke. For me, the best way to tell my own history (it even is not over yet)

Tell it with a smoke, and it looks mature. Perhaps I am a stupid bear, like to follow the presentation of telling story  in TV fucking drama.

Even I can smoke but still no one is willingly listen to me as TV drama,

Nothing should be pround of actually, the stupid past may not be easy to be swept away by telling somebody.

What a damn truth,

These five years, feeling has become much complicated, and I simply cannot be back. I hope the one I love will be as twisted as I am.

Corruption in life is almost inevitable.