yesterday night i had a talk with her
i understand that she is better than before and enjoys her post from the conversation
so i give up my original  aim ( telling her the truth,  )
i realised that it is not important for her to know or clarify my purpose of conversation on August ,2011
sometimes, ignoring my feeling may be the best way to address the problem
so I persuade myself not to think deeply and feel regrettable anymore.
i tell myself that this is the end of the confrontation.