講真的, 自從用回XANGA後, QOOZA真的很久沒再碰上了...
記得最初想說XANGA負責英文的網誌, 而QOOZA就負責中文的,
但後來都懶得去分... 用慣XANGA就XANGA... ;P

不過, 這次想寫的是有關我現在的學習...
現在WINTER INTERSECTION我選了讀PHILO 1,
感覺上我好像選錯科了... 因這科對一個ESL的學生來說真的是很深了...
雖然我每天都有按著進度看書及思考書中的內容,
但就總會有些不會的...
而在課上教授的聲音時大時少, 而且他用的VOCAB我有些都不會...
有時候抄NOTES我都覺得有點困難...
而且教授還要求要有課堂的PARTICIPATION...
但我就因本身有語言問題, 所以通常都不會有問題發言..
雖然現在已經想逼自己發言, 但就真的想不到...
(JUST DON'T KNOW WHY THE TYPING IN CHINESE IS SO SLOW...
SO I CHANGA TO TYPE IT IN ENG.)
Right now, it's almost half semester, I don't know what can I do...
I really wanna rise my hand and make a comment,
but my mind just don't know what I can say...
I pray for God everyday, I just hope him can guide me and give me a brave to do it,
but I just find out I can't do it easily...
Sometimes I judge God doesn't bless me, but I know I am wrong.
Just like today, I thought God just felt today's discussion wan't suit for me,
maybe because I didn't have any experience about this,
so he didn't want me to say noncense things!?
I don't know, I really don't have any idea...
but I just think from now on, if I have a chance and any thought,
I must need to rise my hand and just say it.
Maybe my aunt is right, dun consider any grammar/ mistake,
just say it, nobody will laugh u!!!
Each time I really dunno why God needs to charge me so many things,
I always see the others can do things easily or happily,
but I always needs to do really hard things, and the things always make me have bad experience...
but I know God must have his own reason for me to do it.
I know he must want me to learn sth, I trust him, I know him.
Right now, I dun have anyth. to say.
but I just wanna thank God to guide me everyday.
And thanks him to give me so many good things.
I know I am not alone because he will always be with me and watch me.
Recently, I always think I am alone because I dun have a person who I can talk to when I am sad...
but I know I am wrong because right now I know God is always there be with me.
I thank him for sharing my sadness, hard time, and whatever.
Dunno what to say... but just really thank him be there with me,
and giving me so many brave and happiness.
Again, just dunno what to type... but all this are praying for Jesus name, a men.