ｋａka∼~今日開左呢個日記仔∼~不過其實我唔當佢係日記~因為我唔係寫everyday發生過o既事ga~都唔係日日寫~我開o黎只不過係打我想講~同諗到o既o野入去 ｊａr~

哎~呢排心情好差...詳細原因都唔講luu~曾經有諗過..sucicide...我知咁係好傻..但係當我放把cutter o係手o既時候...我諗起..cting..諗起miss cho..諗起琛哥..諗起契哥...諗起佢o地講o既一句說話...應成我..唔好界手..諗到呢度..喊左出o黎...爭d又令佢o地傷心令佢o地難過....亦都係呢句簡單o既一句說話..令我放低左把cutter...更加諗起柏柏你講....>>o係我想死o既時候..係邊個同我講我死左有好多fd會傷心..係你呀...<<就係呢句說話....我決定..無論發生咩事..我都唔可以傷害自己..唔單止係為自己..仲要為好多關心我o既人而好好咁生存落去..仲要係開心o既...我要搵返...以前開心傻傻o地o既妲己~呢個先係真正o既我...睇到呢度..我知你o地會擔心我..會俾我嚇親..sorry呀...我以後唔會再咁任性...

今日練波o既時候...呀包發明左樣新野要我同呀儀練...就係>>將黑色果條大橡筋~縛o係個龍門度...之後我o地拉住佢跳去另一邊...總之唔識點describe喇...咁到我練la...點知...成個龍門就趺左落o黎..我係咁避...我o係到諗..我會唔會俾佢撞到個頭就咁死左...所以我係咁避..我唔想死..但係佢札左落我隻手度..好彩我縮得快..唔係我隻手會骨折ga..我唔可以俾隻手有事..我要打好個學界ga!!雖然唔冇折到..但係就好痛..好痛......之後成班人走晒o黎問我有冇事..haha~果個moment幾感動ga..想喊添ga~~haha~傻鬼左~~不過嚇死我law...

唉..呢排o係a grade練波一d都唔開心!!老妖同琪琪姐姐佢o地根本唔聽我講...點解寧願o係度hea都唔跟琛哥練.....唉..或者我係最細..佢o地根本覺得唔駛聽我講...
而家好唔想去練a grade....好想返b grade..!!!!!!!!
唔想練..都要練....有時有ｄ野..你唔想做但係都要去做..呢個係一個責任...但係..原來迫自己去做你唔想做o既o野係好辛苦...但係我有得揀咩?由一開始佢升我去a grade我已經冇得揀....

呢排真係好煩..好累~但係我係唔會就咁give up..我點都會捱落去...我要練到我自好fit...唔理佢o地點對我...因為我係琛哥教出o黎ga...我唔想令佢失望..更加唔想對唔住自己..所以我一定會做到最好!!我唔止要令lkkc既人認同我!!我仲要其他學校o既人知道lkkc有我呢個keeper而驚..( haha~呢個想法好傻ga..)~~唔會衰俾人睇ga!!

kaa~呢個野好長丫..打左好耐添~呵~傻左~~

隻手好痛丫...唉....

to u:

對唔住呀今日...我知我錯...forgive me....
有好多野想講..但係唔識講呀.....總之...希望你明我諗乜...