Sry to make u hard feeling and heavy and thinking like a big trouble 

I knew I should be the one stay with you when you in need

i knew I should make you happy and just play lol and talk in funs to give u positive energy

but when I first saw ur word to me is tue may have to cancel. 

I just go down in deep and all my negative emotions come up my mind.

Especially, I knew u stay with the man who may probably treat you like me in the future

And I see I make a second mistake to talk those things in this  fking wrong moment

which may results to a comparison for you to think classmate is better than me 

I have to say, none of these days become easy to me when I started to love you.

i have to control my emotional, so I can gd treat ur emotion, talk like normal and tell myself to aware of all your things

but this relationship hv others from the very beginning, it,s not just u and me I hv to take care of.

it,s about all the boys and you I hv to take care of

and I hv to take care myself from not being jealous, not do silly things and not ask crazy questions which may make you stress ,unhappy or choose.

and guess what, I am the only one who have to take all this alone and no one to share or take care of my feelings