And it just like a torture to me

that I hv to think how to be fair, how to balance everything to make myself feel better

i am a fair person who want someone to treat me like I treat them.

i found that u are tired becoz u always hv to take care of answer my questions. 

And u may think that is ur way to take care my emotion and u did very enough on it.

but actually u are just avoiding to choose and allow the problem to grow. 

U talked everything to me becoz I am ur emotional assistant and also relationship solver at the beginning.

and in addition u know I love you now and that supposed to be ur reward to me.

i always thinking, why u dun,t choose me.

if u dun know I am the right person for u to love, I can wait.

but if u just want to hold every boy who loves you and treat you well.

i dun think u can be that selfish.

its hard for you tdy, but I want to say its been hard to me for months.

Maybe I am just not gd enough to fit you.

and maybe I will write all the stuff in here instead of asking you. At least I can still write here, glad to know that.