So down today
more sad nad worried than during exam
cry cry cry
crying all the hours
i know that i hv done bad in my exam, extremely bad
all the failures come in f.3, and causing me very LOW self-esteem
i deny that i am lazy
but i'm not hard-working enough, and my studying method is not efficient
as i know, all the 12 subjects must not have a good result
some may even have a high chance to fail
WHAT A SHAME
the week after christmas holiday will be horrible
i predict it, and i prefer it
lord plz bless my ranking is not out of 40
but it really, i'll only hv a little surprise cause i know
this's the result of not preparing well
THIS'S ALL MY FAULT
i'm not a well-studying person
not like gloria, christy, helen...
i'm have no an ultimate, great dream or direction about future
like my trumpet sister, doctor cherise n J...
my future road is full of mist and fog
i dunno where to go
ys u may say that i hv some potentials in some aspects
but not having talent or big interest at all
LOSING
sometimes i may encourage myself actually i think
I'M THE MOST SPECIAL ONE IN THE WORLD
no one knows who i really love
no one knows who i really hate
no one knows wt's in my head, in my brain
n no one knows i hv created something to support me
but the above can't cover the fact of i'm a DUM
so glad i hv gd fds, i'm feel warm with them
sometimes i may think it's fine to hv some failures coz i got fds' supprt (not support, but some kind of it)
but reality give me the answer IT"S NOT THE TRUTH
i'm a person who is deeply affected by achieves
i want to catch up but it seems useless
anyway i need to use the christmas to reflect
the result is mainly about my preparation time on exam
NOT DETAIL TOO ROUGH
i know i always write things negative
here i need to thanks all of u whatever u hv done to me,,
2 sisters,, jade,, joyce,, sylvia,, cherise,, vanessa,, chudai,, melody,, gloria,, christy x2...
THANK YOU
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