It's very troublesome to type in Chinese. Let me get a chance to blog in English.

I feel like everything in my mind crash. As I always said, I don't know what my dream is, I don't know what I hope for, and I even don't know what I really want.

I face my textbooks but I don't really know I study for what. I just understand that if I don't, I cannot enter the university.

But, I am still struggling between different careers and professions.

I try not to think too much, but when I see so many people around me study hard for their DSE and their future, I feel like I am too small, like an ant, that I know nothing about the world. Even myself.

At midnight when I put my books in front of me, my brain flows to another thinking level. 

I think of the life after death. (I mean, if there is still life)

I am so scared. My soul sinks in somewhere that I cannot be awake anymore. The world leaves me, and I 'sleep' for billions of years before everyone is torn into pieces when the Earth crushes with the Sun. (if it is fact)

What does the 80-year-life mean to me? What does this period mean to the world?

It means nothing.

Afterall, I will be left with unconsciousness. At that time, I don't even find myself because my soul and my mind are not HERE, in my body anymore.

I am THAT scared. So I think of Mayday. (Yeah, I am so addicted)

The songs can cure the wound in my thought.

They give their happiness to us. But then, they leave theirs.

They become TOO famous, which actually they have never thought of.

Do they really want that? I believe their dream when they were teens does not include anything like this.

They run for concerts everywhere, and have to compose songs for other singers,and even dramas.

They are too tired. 

What I prefer is that, they rest more, and have fewer concerts. Although waiting is suffering, I believe, waiting for a wolrd-best concert is worthwhile.

Or else, I am not sure if they are still those teens talking about dreams under the blue sky, or just dolls controlled by the company.

I think fans don't demand for gorgeous clothes and stage effect. Just be yourself. You know, like the concert in 2011 Just Rock It in HK. Although it's simple, it's much more attracting. We love the songs and their attitude, not any supplement.

I must say that I really love Mayday, but I am so sorrowful to see them going there and here with no deadline.

Anyway, I got to do my homework.