very lazy n0w.. don't want to do anything
i l0st my energy.. all 0f it!
no one push me to L0VE,, no one push me to W0RK
i suck!! s0rry 0f all the thingz i had done b4
i am really that stupid.. i don't kn wt's going on n0w><
can i just run awa?y.. don't face anything even don't talk to bb
i don't sure all 0f the relationship
seemz i had change a l0t.. i can feel it
bec0z 0f bb? 0r bec0z 0f all the thingz that i did and i kn?
i am n0t brave enough to do all the thingz without anyone stay with me
i hate to be alone.. i hate to stay at a quite place.. i hate to live without sound
s0.. i started to meet many fd
trying to make i feel better/3\ but it didn't work
just keep on l0sting some fd>< i suck again
sorry to everybody!
i just want to haid myself.. 0r try to treat didnt happen anything
i kn that's really hard f0r me
i can't do anything without anybody stay with me
god` help me plz
hving a meeting about "student club" in minnie home
wt a great house.. i feel so gd there
very safe.. and m0st 0f the memeber don't kn me
that's great*v*
we are chatting and drawing always..
meet many new fdz.. but they can share my feeling 0f n0t?
they are just such a little guy.. younger than me!
haha` how cute are they><
the relationship between bb and i seemz turning bad
i don't really care about that.. i think
feeling h0peless in every single night
i hvn't feel that b4.. n0w i always want to cry whlie i am laughing
i don't kn wt's happened with me
i kn that is hard to keep our relationship;; i think i can accept that when bb told me he hv to go
but i kn we can't
n0t his problem!! i always miss him and he always n0t allow to chat with me
we are n0t stay at the same time line.. wt can i d0 f0r that?
i tried everything.. i woke s0 earlier and sleep s0 late already
and i n0t suppose to do that!!! we are becoming bc on our work
we g0t no time to do the thingz that i want
i am sick 0f it.. i want to give all the thingz up
the thingz had happened after 13/2/2008
all the thing about bb and i
at least i can f0cuz on my own work n0w.. n0 regret all0wed
anyway,, i hv to thz bb f0r talking a care to me in these 7monthz
thz!
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