i just sick 0f everything..
everyday bad newz,,
i hate to pretend happy`
yup.. i am the one who produce smlie><
but doesn't mean i laugh bec0z i happy
i can't control myself.. f0r laughing
although i kn that i feeling down.. i will still laugh
in these dayz...
comm class classmate keep hving a down mood c0z 0f our result
i seemz don't hv hyper in the class
everytime i wanna cry 0r laugh;;
i don't want to do that in front 0f anyone
i hate that feeling!!!!
9/10/2008
we hv T&T at the last lesson..
kk sir had said sth that was funny.. i f0rg0t wt's that
anywayz,, i become hyper again
b0nnie said i didn;t laugh that lound and crazy f0r a long time
at that moment i f0und that i hv too much thing to handle
i f0rg0t h0w to laugh,, guy
i hate to waiting bb for a long time but he still didn't find me
i hate wongyukling to do such stupid thing to me
i hate her so damn much
u!!!! never be my fd again" I W0N'T ACCEPT U ANYWAYZ
u can go to die.v. wt the hell
i hate to hv those relationship with my fdz
i hate i can't cheer my fdz up
i hate myself.. sometimez
many thingz coming to let e handle
but i didn't g0t that power to do that..
no one kn.. no one care
actually.. i don't nd it
just let me do wtever i like.. just let me to die
i want to separate with bb.. i think f0r two dayz
i really don't want to wait
that was s0 annoying.. and make me mad
bb seemz never wait f0r me
h0w many time i wait f0r him? i f0rg0t already
bb went to canada f0r nearly two monthz
we had argue f0r about three timez
same as that when he is in hk
wt's the advantage to let him go there?
bb just called me seven timez after he arrive there
i nearly to f0rget his voice
wt's the reason to keeo our relationship?
i can't feel his love,, i can't feel sweet from him
that's my problem 0r his problem?
0r.. there hv someone going in his pose make me f0cuz on the other way?
i kn that i am still loving bb
but s0rry about i really can't feel bb's love
it make me confuse><
i don't want bb to leave me,, but i want to leave bb-,-
wt the hell am i think?!
both of us seemz rem0ving our love to somewhere
i don't kn wt should i do..
i was not that love bb when we just start
i think i hv the wrong decision.. s0rry but i regret
i just lie everyone.. being with bb was so diffcult to be happy
i want to quit.. stay away from bb
i hope that will be the best way for both of us
i am tired of it><
i really don't trust bb,, i always think that he hv the other girl fd
s0.. i be s0 cl0sed with the b0yz
although i kn that i don't love them and just treat them as my fd
h0ld.
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