nine monthz with bb<3
love ya and n0t going to change.
finally i g0t the answer.
i suck` i said that f0r many timez
that's everyone kn right?
and everyting gonna hv an end.
i just wanna quit all these thing,, i sick 0f these
hate that to perend` i hv never be important to every single ppl
and i just walk along their life and that's it
that's my life
i kn,, even bb didn't put me on his first position
wt's the only thing i hv,, ha?
i am the one who live without any love.
really none.. who's the producer 0f L0VE?
i sure that won't be me.. i just live f0r let ppl hv fewz min 0f happiness
and that's over! I HATE IT!!!
i just like live in a cage that in a zoo.
just everyone come in front of me and hope that i can make some fun
i nd some freedom actually.
can't i take any photoz with my fdz? y bb always care about the little thingz in my eyez?
and going to angry with me,, scold me
then wt can i do when i seen him to take photoz with other girlz.
i just keep slient and perend i hv seen nth.
that's wt i suppose to do? y?
i just want to hv some L0VE. is it too diffcult to give me?
god i am coming to stay with u
who is gonna safe me? no one.. i kn
that's it.. everything is 0VER!
i hv a take a big rest,, without anybody care and worry
can i hv my own life plz?
n0t going to do that stupid thing like killiing myself
but to run away from all the thingz
i didn't mention about any sadness in front 0f classmate and fd..
but it n0t mean i am happy always
enough! i never be the important one
just someone be my N0. 1 2 3..
and from n0w on,, all is gonna be fair..
no any position set anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and til ever
i leave all these thing.. so no one leave me alone
c0z i am the one who leave all 0f u.
u guyz never kn h0w i feel when all 0f u leave me..
u guyz always perend didn't see me.. all 0f these i will never f0rget
c0z i don't want to f0rget anyone 0f u. and these are the main memory that u gave me
thz.. i QUIT
live by my own is better than depend every single one 0f u.
i am working on my own life.. by everything u done
i hv g0t a gd lesson f0r how meeting new fd..
i kn fd's funcion.. is to hit it when u feel bad
s0 i am leaving all these thing.. i just don't want to face it anym0re
i didn't brave enough,,
back to the begin,, i just want to hv a life that hv less hurt
at least i want to cry
maybe i should stay and be the one who keep on crying
that's all i want maybe
this is 23/11/2008
and today i was together with bb f0r nine monthz
love bb all the time.. and waiting f0r him to come back
and to see him play with his fd,, and waiting f0r him to date me
that;s all the thingz i will do after 14/12/2008
c0z i am nth
who the one he miss isn't be me,, and never be
end up.
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