I am already tired of this kind of life.  Can it stop to let me breath in fresh air?  Can it stop being chur?  Can it stop being such heavy workload?  Or this is only what I think it should be?  Maybe others think it is ok or nice for them.  However, since it exsists, I make myself to be a monster who work for a castle but not living outside the colourful city.  All I need is only to get a rest.  May I???