Dear M：

I need a helping hand,  but I can’t find one at the end of my arm.

He is my fire ,the one I desire. Sounds like that I am going crazy. But please give me some advises. I can’t breath freely. Although I know what I should do , I just can’t exactly do what O gonna do one by one.  I thought I could be optimistic but it turns out to be wrong. I can’t handle all of my problems Sometimes I feel lonely ,definite lonely  deep inside. So many classes to have, and so much work to do, also ,so much sorrow to face and burden. God , I believed in myself before, not now. I need a rest to see the sence of the colorful world which I ingnored or even abandoned before. I need to take a look at the bottom of my heart, getting out what I really seek for in my life. Dose this puzzle me for so many years? Maybe.

Someone said heaven is a place nearby,,so needn’t say goodbye. Is it true? If so, I think god could hear my word---------give me a helping hand-----------------lucky someday.

I miss my family, and my hometown. And now all of them are far away from me. I am in a place that is in long distance to my hometown. Every year I could go back home only twice. I know that my parents hope me to be a integrated woman one day after my graduation . All I wanna do now is to reduce my stress, and take a rest, and then , work hard to reach my goal. Somehow, I doubt about my ability. I used to be confident , how could someone take it away from me?

Can you feel my word? Can you do me a favor? Can I be the one I used to? Can I be the one I do really love?

Maybe all of this just because of my apart from that guy!

Maybe I will do better .

I be one better!!

“I AM ALL ABOUT YOU!” you said.

I am happy!