我今天因為很多事而不開心(又是積壓很久了)。
我恨自己是因為自己的自私。經常想做一些事情對自己好，但又難為了別人。
但如果不"請求"其他人的話，我又覺得有點"唔舒服"，當然最終我當然選擇了不難為別人。
但我最生氣的是我知道自己錯誤的想法，但仍不想改，我真的很遜，一個十分差勁的人。
這是內心掙扎嗎?為甚麼自己不能立定決心?
今天終於崩潰了，媽咪還希望解決我的問題，但我知道告訴她，她也一定認為我是個無賴。
但我'博了一po"，結果我是輸了。她認為我根本不想悔改，還大大力關上了門。
我也不要求你協助我，請你不要逞強開解我。
原來有些想法是不可告訴她，我終究體驗到其他朋友對父母的一點"無奈"、不諒解。
我突然想起Kelly Clarkson的 Because of you真的應景。
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
I lose my way
And i’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that;s weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can;t possibly break
When it wasn;t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don;t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing..
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don;t get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I;m ashamed of my life because it;s empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you...you...
Because of you...you...
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