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甘日正常地返學,,放學,,,,
冇特別的,,,同謝心講左喇,,,個心舒服左好多,,,就算事實冇乜點改變,,,
我覺得大家講清楚已經夠了...^^＊
放左學一早就返屋企,,,唉...點知冇門入,,,d人仲未返,,
之後係樓梯口等,,,,,,,,等q左勁耐,,,-,-""
唉,,,,跟住就開始唔開心喇,,,
我同佢傾,,,,講左我係屋企既問題比佢聽,,,都係因為屋企問題先搞到,我,唔開心,,,唉
都唔明點解,,明明我都係想講我屋企既事比佢知ja,,,點知又冇啦啦搞到我同佢既事喎,,,都唔知做乜,,,嬲咩,,,,,又唔係嬲喎....燜.....又唔知佢燜咩,,,,我家入面既事ja,,,都唔輪到佢煩牙,,明明唔關佢事嫁喎,
佢屋企有佢屋企既事我屋企都有我屋企既事,,,,講左出黎都係得個知字ja,,,,
但係點解冇喇喇會搞到你嬲左我呢,,,好難明囉,,,,,,
有好多人唔明白我ja,.,,,估唔到連你都唔知,,,,不過你實話你知既,,,,
我唔係唔想用你d錢牙,,,,我亦都唔係話唔洗人幫,,,,但係幫既定義有好多ja,,,唔係一定係借錢比我呱,,
唉,,,我唔知點同你講,,,,總之我唔係因為唔想用你d錢唔洗你幫喇
如果你嘗試下係我立場諗諗,,,,,,不過或者諗唔到的,,,,,如果你係我,,,你就會知道點解,,
我好肯定好肯定咁話比你知,,,,,你一定一定同我一樣,,唔想向其實人借錢,,,,,,唉,,不過就咁講你都唔會明嫁喇
你話你明,,,,,但係其實你根本唔明,,,
你屋企有基本的經濟能力,,,而你自己亦都有,,,你係唔會明白我既感受嫁,,,
你只係會覺得,,,,你比我大,,經歷得比我多,,,,我經歷過既事你一定經歷過,,,,
你覺得我而家既事對你黎講根本係一d好細微好細微既事,,,,,
但係我唔覺牙,,,我都好想好似你咁,,,,,,有能力搵到錢,,,自己交學費,,,咁就唔洗煩咁多囉,,
唉,,,,可能我諗錯,,又或者我真係諗錯,,,,,,但係我好肯定咁話比你知,,,,,我唔係你所諗咁既囉
你話晒都大我4年,,,,你同我既諗法一定會差距,,,
你唔好將你既諗法套係我身上....好似你今日話,,,(e.g)"我跟本冇壓力嫁".......
你會覺得係囉,,,,,你既諗法,,,,但係我想話比你知我係屋企一直都好大壓力囉,,
不過你又一定係會覺得我仲細,,好多野都唔識諗,,,,哩d叫壓力,,,將來仲有大把更加重既壓ma,,我知牙,,,但係唔係因為將來有壓力而家就會冇嫁,,,你屋企3個人都有返工,,,當唔計你老豆喇,,,,你媽媽同你都有,,,可能你賺到返黎既錢可能你唔用得幾多,,但係你會幫到你阿媽,,,可以減輕下佢既負擔牙,,,但係我唔係你ma,,,
我未有能力搵錢牙,,,我唔可以自己幫自己交學費牙,,,,算喇,,,,唉,,,講黎都冇用,,講完之後我都係冇錢嫁喇,,,,,,
總之我一諗起我冇錢,,,,下下都要人借,,,,個個人都話借,,,,我就好想喊,,,,好燜,,,好燥牙,,,,
唔關借錢對象既問題,,,,而係我個人自尊既問題牙!!!!!!!!!!
總之我一同d人講,,屋企冇錢牙,,,好煩牙,,點點點點點,,,,個個都同我講,,我借比你先囉,,,
咁喎,,,,,,,,,,,,哈哈,,,我覺得好難受牙,,,唔係話果d人衰,,,,而係我自己 個心難過牙,,,
d人同我 講,,,,,咁唔係點ja,,,你係冇錢牙ma,,,,係唔係都 要問人借嫁喇,, ,,,
....哈,,,,,,之後我就會覺得好難受囉,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,好憎好憎好憎自己 囉,,,,,憎自己冇錢牙!!!???又唔係喎,,,我又唔知憎自己d咩,,總之好憎自己,,,,,,,,,,,,好難過牙,,,,, 不過,,,,,都係我個人屋企既問題,,,我講左出黎係想比你知道,,,,唔係要你幫我d咩,,,哩d話晒都係我屋企既問題,,,, 係想比你知,,,,係想你明白下我既感到,,,屋企人同我唱反 調,,,,ok,,我忍,,,,,我就同你恕下,,,,發洩一下ja,,點知講左之後我既感受冇好到而且仲更加難過,,, 唔知做咩,,,爆無奈囉,,,個心好凹牙,,,, 我想你會哄下我,,,令我開心返d,,點知你又係咁話我,,,,,,咁同我屋企人有咩分別ja,,, 以為你係我條仔,,,,你會明白我,,,了解我,,,,,,,會安慰下我,,,,點知唔係.....唉,,我唔識講牙....
我唔想每次我屋企有d咩事,,,,同你講完之後就冇喇喇同你嗌交囉,,,,都唔知咩事,,,
明明成件事都唔關你同我之間既事嫁ma,,,,但係點解,,,,點解會咁既,,,
諗左好耐都諗唔明牙,,, 好心好痛好痛,,,,,??
可能真係太唔了解對方,,,唉＊
成日都要鬥鬥鬥鬥鬥,,,,都唔知有咩好鬥,,,,鬥我同你邊個壓力夠大??鬥我同你邊個識諗d??鬥我同你邊個辛苦d??鬥我同你邊個屋企人關係差d??鬥我同你邊個窮d??/唔係牙
有得鬥咩,,,,,,,每個家有自己既家事牙,,跟住冇得好鬥牙,,,,但係唔知點解,,,
一講就條氣唔順,,,,,你講既野唔岩我聽我講既亦都唔岩你聽,,,,之後就搞到我同你嗌交牙,,???
嘩,,,,哈哈,,,,,,好無謂好白痴牙,,,,究竟我地之間發生咩事,,,,,
一直都係咁囉,,,,,,,,每次嗌交既原因都差唔多,,,,
有事你講左d野好難聽,,,,,,,,,,我又唔想同你呦喎,,,,,,,未唔出聲囉,,,,唔出聲都唔得,,,
但係出聲呢,,,,又窒黎窒去,,好喇,,,,,,,,終於窒到大家發晒脾氣囉,,,,,,之後就嬲喇,,,,嬲又話唔係嬲,,
我同你都淨係識鬥氣,,,,好白痴囉,,,,,,,,,,唉,,,,,,,,,,哎呀!!!!!!
嗌交都唔係問題牙,,,,,,嗌完唔開心係正常呱,,你同我都會嫁喇,,,,,,,但係你就會更加更加唔開心,,原因係你令到我唔開心,,,,,,,哈哈,,,,,,即時唔知比d咩反應你,,,哈哈,,,,,,,,再係咁,,,,,我怕就算真係,,嗌左交我都唔敢唔開心,,,我怕比你知道左我唔問心,,,,,,你又會憎你自己,,,,整到我唔開心........哈哈....無奈牙,,
話比你知,,,我唔想你會唔開心,,,,,,,大家有問題我想直直接接咁講出黎,,,係想你知道我覺得個問題係咩,,,,,,如果你覺得唔岩既,,,你可以講返個問題出黎,,,,
我咁講係怕你會唔知點諗,,,怕你會更加唔開心,,,,,,,, 咩野都好,,,我唔鍾意屈係果心度,,,我想講出黎解決個問題去,,,,,,, 希望你睇完之後唔會亂諗 唔好唔開心 ...
對５住牙”...sorry！
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