天終於有一點雨了,

我從來不喜歡晴天, 除了因為晴天很熱,

因為晴天總是給人心情好的感覺, 但我的心情往往成了對比。

很諷刺。

下了雨, 就有我可以在天面前哭的感覺,

我真的很笨很奇怪。

跟妳一起的時間, 總是極端的,

跟妳在一起是我最幸福的時候, 也是我最痛苦的時候。

如果我不奢求在妳心裡擁有一點位置,

為什麼當妳跟別人抱擁, 玩得很快樂的時候, 我會覺得很難受?

然後在妳面前笑著的, 犯賤得很。

我有什麼資格去叫妳別這樣? 有什麼資格去介意?

但我就是一直跟著妳走, 一直走一直走......

其實由那天決定是妳的時候, 我就不想到回頭。

明白沒有　在懸崖上哪可退後  妳要轉左我不會行右
望著自己的映像搖曳跌蕩  仍然優雅地盲目搏鬥
明白沒有　任何難度我都接受  我會痛惜妳最新好友
捏著自己的心臟狂烈跳動  但求跟妳伴奏

我不偉大, 我自私得很, 我的獨佔慾比誰都大,

妳的一句慰問我想要, 妳的一句惡言我也想要,

原來為愛流的眼淚.也是種甜蜜滋味

如果語言上或身體上的傷害, 是重視我的表現, 那不要緊, 我會學著接受。

因為我早就連自己都不要。

但會不會, 我也不會是唯一一個?

哈, 我真的很犯賤, 也瘋了。

On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that's all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Now there's gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you'll always win
even when I'm right
'cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it's sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
til the walls are goin' up
in smoke with all our memories

This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night
so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counselin'
this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

差不多一星期沒有用FB了。

我還是會偷偷的看妳的近況, 還是會因為妳而笑而難過。

「我要努力」這是我說的,

別迫我說我的努力是為了自己, 我從來不是對自己那麼好的人。

不過不要緊吧, 這種事妳不用知道, 只有我一個知道就好了。

被世界遺棄不可怕; 喜歡妳有時還可怕。

別再說一些自暴自棄的說話了好不?

我看到真的很心痛, 很怕妳有天會發生什麼事。

第一次發瘋的找一個人; 第一次發那麼多個短訊給一個人叫她別亂......

(閱讀全文)

什麼時候, 又想打網誌呢?

連受傷都不控訴　怕妳告別得更早

原以為自己會幸福, 以為有可能。

別發夢了。

哭到眼睛都腫掉, 頭都痛了, 又有什麼用呢?

就算在這裡打著自己想說的話, 又有什麼用呢?

終究是我沒勇氣, 終究是我什麼也抓不住。

很痛。就像妳知道被刀割一定會痛, 就算妳怎樣有心理準備, 那痛還是令人吃不消。

我很討厭這樣的自己。很討厭愛玩弄人的命運......

(閱讀全文)