比昨天更加黑仔....

繼琴日之後...

今日更加黑仔...通常我一當黑就幾日既事....今日都唔例外...

尾三堂就放果陣......有個同學佢講我壞話.....

唔知係咪琴日既事...今日心情仲未好返...

仲要比同學話....仲要係無拉拉話我...同佢又唔係好熟...唔倨我就可以咁???可以講第二d野...但佢偏偏就講果我至憎果3個字(依家唔講la)...呢3個字暸起左我把火...我係呢間學校一年半來未比人地咁話過....我勁嬲...超想拎起打椅狂打佢...雖然係女仔...我都唔會比面佢...樣衰...仲要全班最肥...我同佢河水不犯井水...冇拉拉用果3個字話我...

好有衝動想飛櫈打佢(雖然上緊堂)....

但係我最後都係冇做...理智戰勝了衝動(以前試過左一次...依家醒左)....但係心情勁唔好....成2堂唔想同人地講野...

心情比琴日仲差...

放左學...

連我既朋友都睇出我出左問題....問我咩事...我就同佢講:"捉返場棋先!"將憤怒發泄係棋盤上.....

點知...

捉下捉下.....有個訓導阿sir來話唔比捉棋.....我^&^%$&%$^#!佢......我好唔情願咁收棋lol......

點知收左之前仲要大聲話我...話我態度唔好(天啊!!!心情咁都要我笑騎騎咁對住佢???)....話我比面色佢睇....我做唔到lol..我由一開始就咁既面色...咁佢姐係想我點???

佢見我態度仲唔改善....叫我落教員室...同我地個班主任訓話......班主任都話我同平時唔同左....平時態度好好...

跟住又訓話.....佢話...心情唔好都唔可以咁對阿sir(勁囧.....老師心情唔好都黑口黑面對住學生...我咁就唔得....咩學校來架....)

心情本來就勁差....依家跌入左谷底.....最後仲要我同個阿sir講sorry....

呢件事原左我入左洗手間洗面冷靜下自己,....狂洗...狂左半個鐘......見到鏡中既自己.....2隻眼極度憤怒到變成紅色.....好似就來發癲....

今日勁委屈....好憤怒....勁無辜.....好無奈....

今日既一切一切....都係果3個字引起....我會記住.....佢地以後同我恩住來....

返到屋企....今日既憤怒令我寫左1600字作文....寫想飛櫈果陣...內心的決擇.....

下次唔知會點....今日我忍到佢地...下次我點都唔會....飛埋櫈比佢.....

依家開始邊個人都唔好激嬲我....我隨時扯火...爆左做出咩事可以連我都唔知.....

2009-03-17

今日放學前十分鐘...

唔知我出左咩問題...

畫左我張桌幾下...個miss就好惡咁罰我清潔返成張(咁岩呢個時候miss發緊火).張野一早比人畫左幾百下...我清左我畫果幾條..佢都係要我清晒全部...仲要係咁多人面前話我...

我受軟唔受硬.我發左火(今日唔知咩事..心情唔好..好易扯火)...就唔聽佢講...坐到放學.

我好耐冇發過火(有成5個月,本時都好難發火)..miss同玩?我就陪佢玩落去........

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