sometimes i was thinking about our relations,
sometimes i was thinking waht i loss,
sometimes i was thinking my future, our future.

am i silly? am i a fool?
these day i was live in a hell.....
i dont know how to face my family,my result,my lover,even myself
i am crying, but who knows,who cares, who willing to pay attention on me?
i have lost my favorite, and i am afraid you will forget me when you busy....

once, you asked me "if one day i lose the memories, just remember the former girlfriend
what will you do?"
i cant think anything at that moment, i just know i can't forget you,and let you leave me without my life.
actually, i cried for this. Of course, you always tell me how crazy between you and your bandmate who is girl one,
and now you tell me "if", it's too painful, you know?

i have told me, i need to generously to face your past,your friends with gril......
honestly, i want you to keep your distance from that grils. 
yes, i really mind to hear these news. i saw you so many friends are gril,and you how close with them.....
as i, i am not many friends, even can say none.

i choose to type this blog and not tell you because i dont know how to do.
i dont wanna you think i am miserly girlfriend.....

you find hurt,painful, sadness when someone which you love left.
what should i do....and what can i do?