i wish to be cheerful
i wish to make myself laugh
unfortunately, i cant
i am not tht kind of person
i cant laugh if i think about my own feeling
i cant hide my disappointment
i know, u all dun want to have a fd tht has negative thinking
but wt can i do??
i am who i am...
indeed, ure hurting me
absolutely, i am being hurt
thts the truth, rite??
thts wt i cant bear
its too hard for me
as i always think about u
its time to think about myself
i need to bacome selfish once
as i have never been selfish
u treat me as air
but a unwanted air
u can live wifout me
but i CANNOT
i cannot live wifout u
why?? y are u so important to me??
i want the answer
u must know the answer
tell me the truth
dun lie on me
help me and set me free
if u dun want to be my fd
jst help me, its the first time and also the last time
PLEASE, i beg, i have never tried to beg someone
now i beg... its not difficult rite??
jst tell me wt have i done wrongly
or wt do u hate
jst tell me all these
then i will know my fault
and go away
away from ur sight
away from ur life
disappear is my duty
i can always disappear if u dismiss me
i will have nth to say but only leave
if my leave is gd for u
i dare say ure exactly ignoring me
do forgive my ignorance
i have tried many times
and i failed in these tasks
do u know y?
coz i trust u all too much
i shouldnt be like this
i trusted him and i failed
now i trust u and i fail again
see? its the law
thts wt i cant change
anyway, hope u have a hapi, lucky new yr
although i wont have one
i hope ull get one
if u dun find me, its okay
or maybe u are being polite
try to answer me but not wif ur heart
then i wont let u be challenged
to have ur gd life...
everytime i fail, i type this blog
to state my feeling come to an end
i wish to be cheerful
i wish not to be affected anymore
can u see it?
have u read it??
do u know i am talking about u??
i wish u get it
ure a clever man
u must get it, rite?
to say gd bye... "BYE"""