Most of you,I mean my friends or classmates,
think I am so cold,so quiet,or even boring.
Not just you,even my younger sister Coco,
says I am an ice man who is waiting for someone to
use a fire and melt meso I can be a normal girl again.
In fact,maybe I am an ice man but there is always a reason.
I am very moody,maybe you guys didn't know,but that's who I am.
I often feel very sad and lonely without any reasons
I don't know why,even if I do, I won't you,any of you
It is because I don't believe you.
I feel so lonely even Catcat and Alica is here with me.
I always cry,I feel like no one cares about me.
But who cares,I am nothing.I am too boring.
According to Eric and I think you guys know who.
Not like Jonny and Stephanie,they are very interesting.
Not like Alica and Catcat,they love to smile and laugh.
Not like Winnie and Carol,they are so special.
Everyone is more important than me.Last time,
I disappeared for a while,I cried in the toilet for
I don't know how long it is,and when I came back,
all 1A students were playing games or talking to each other.
None of you knew that I have left for a moment.
You don't even knew that I was standing near the door,
watching your happy faces.Do you know how painful it is?
How dare you are?None of you cares about me.
None of you,including girls,but not Carmen.
She is only person who discovered how I felt.
She is the only one who do understand me
because no one cares about her either.
Maybe she doesn't care about being lonely but I do.
Is it funny?I hate to be alone but I always feel lonely.
Why I have to do things that I really hate to do?
At first,I didn't believe him.A class is a team.
I am sure no one is useless in this class.
But after that Day four, I was wrong,he was right.
According to him,I am boring,stupid,crazy,cold
and useless.And,he was right.I am nothing.
So,I think it won't be a problem if I leave you forever.
You,all of you,I mean all 1A students in TPYC from 2008-2009,
broke my heart.You can't imagine how painful it is.
I am so disappointed,I thought TPYC is my second home.
Clearly,I was wrong,he was right......
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