i do afraid our relationship

last time when the present which is my birthday from u there's some problem
we have some problem

today when i wake up
the same problem is appeared on my present
i do very afraid our relationship will have the same problem again

in fact that i don't know what should i next to do

two failures
do it means
>>> u just can repect me as your FD~~~!?
>>> i won't be your BF though what i have done or will do~~~~~!?

these few days , i often consider if i should give up
honestly , i don't willing to give up extremely

the last two times , u made me feel i have the chance
however , in fact that u just want me to be your FD but not your BF
i do feel very depressed

i don't want to play TAR LO card with this question
it's because if it say i should give u up
i indeed will not do the thing as the card say
however , it will effect my mood ~~~~

i really don't know wt should i next to do ~~~ give it up or not .