好耐無寫過日記了@﹏@個日記網都唔記得交錢玩完埋+_+"d相呀同回憶都無曬!都好後悔!講真一唔開心就唔想再寫...我諗我呢d思想要改改=_="見d有個免費既偷左來用嘿+_+"
呢排真係發生左好多問題~問題多不聲數><"真係多到無法一言三語就可以講到出來!屋企問題真係夠煩攪生意攪到要借錢之後到最後檔生意都無埋曬曬d錢同仲要好數要煩....不過屋企如此我都唔會強求自己幫到幾多就幾多啦~!雖然屋企常常拎我來發脾氣但係就算點都好我地既關係已經早就定立左無得變!一生一世都係家人....所以盡自己能力就算了!不過真係想了又想再咁想我諗我呢一世真係想成家立室都幾難!哈哈會有個女仔願意唔結婚同居嗎?+_+"我諗都無!
唉公司越做壓力越大了!真係好辛苦....雖然話做野..但係返夜時間又長同返左大大話話一個月都係有唔小既出錯令我好似已經對自己學野既能力失去信心!雖然初初學果陣好快手但係越做就越開始個心好多古淚咁......做極都好似差咁d野咁....同時清潔方面入面真係好多野好煩.....煮野食果d....一時俾人話好好味一時就話無味=.=我唔想落咁多味精咸死你班仆街呀= =!!多多要求!反正你地d野食都係經理簽嫁之嘛~不過點都好....好似俾人d客叫我整個樣酒同個樣酒咁......咁我真係唔識嘛唔係我想嫁大佬....我真係記得4~5種調酒方法.....因為我大佬都係教左我小小!點識咁多-.-次次都唔係又話果樣又果樣......家陣你係深水步就咪咁高要求啦.....要係d女面前型既咪出銅鑼灣果d地方囉+_+"好想唔做人工又小一個月先得9千幾蚊到做到隻狗咁一係就悶到隻狗咁.....唉.....不過個經理同我大佬又對我好.....唔係我都唔做啦!佢唔夠人手我就做到佢搵到一個長工返來啦......自己仲要有時返埋part-time...真係做到個人好支力
....感情我都唔知可以點講.....一直落去每次都要我就曬個女仔.....真係好辛苦每次拍拖都係咁好吃力!如果要求我就你但係你又可唔可以要求返自己有小小時間可以就返我呢大佬我真係好辛苦嫁!唔係整係你地先有壓力!我仲多壓力永遠就要我幫你地解壓力!但自己d壓力永遠都係收收埋埋唔知去左邊....一個人煩又好咩都好都唔想講人知!所以整到個人成日都好燥一係唔聲聲...一聲就爆曬出來...唉我都唔想自己性格變成咁.....我係最好忍耐力既金牛座但係而家已經無左牛既好忍耐力既性格了!我開始覺得我自己有雙重性格出現連自己都好驚我諗我都唔知點去再做決定.....真係想有個人可以開解下我了解下我幫我減壓!好想介煙但係無左煙呢樣野我怕我會常常失控....我都唔知自己可以點做....
而家呢個女朋友佢太純太天真仲係思想上好細個同年齡都好細個其實由我開始拍拖既時間都想搵個成熟d都無諗個搵個細我4年同思想咁成熟既女仔.....因為我真係好想身邊個個可以幫我分擔一下我既壓力....不過最初我都唔明因為感覺就同佢一齊左.....初初都好開心因為可以返返思想細個既我同佢一齊無壓力.....但係做人點會無壓力丫....欺騙自己無壓力反而越來越多同負擔越來越重....同佢一齊都年幾我都希望佢可以改到因為始終個世界係殘酷的唔係天天真真就可以過活只會做到一路俾人傷害......我真係好錫佢張自己有既時間都分配曬俾佢....咩都就佢....好想教好多野俾佢.....但係我已經自己都唔識再控制自己既情緒....成個人都好似冷靜唔到咁..點都好啦!有時都想佢可以明白下我....但係佢自己因為好小既野就覺得好煩....我都好擔心佢第時既人生到底會係點.....係呢排都因為佢真係好唔了解我同想對佢好d....但係永遠都係唔明白....攪到我發左好多次脾氣....不過我都係著緊佢....但係唔知佢又明唔明呢?到左琴日約佢去街諗住叫埋佢d朋友一齊....但係佢又唔明白我整到我又發脾氣....佢自己今次同我講分手.....其實我都講左好幾次分手同唔想愛你....但我又做得出咩....我真係無再去諗過要搵個第2個啦但想你改下你果種性格!不過最後我都係過左佢屋企!
起左身果一刻on左line睇返佢日記同勁舞acc隻人竟然解左情侶- -!!!!果一刻好灰........我真係唔明你禁個一下解情侶既決心同心情!也許我唔應該對你要求多多同要你改因為始終呢個係你既本性....也可能係一種優點....我係呢一刻我都想覺得我諗係唔係我地真係唔夾到好難一齊得長久既地步同根本就無可能一齊落去.....但係點講都好真係唔想放棄你....但我個人真係好支力真係唔識點做...到底就算我地唔分開一路落去又到底可以再一起幾耐?我諗呢個連我地大家都唔會知.....
我真係唔識點做......到底可以點我都唔知....好累了真係咩都唔想再諗......連想解壓既game都整到我一頭無水.....我仲可以搵邊個傾數搵邊一個去幫我.....親人?......哈哈佢地會先算啦.....朋友?我諗佢地而家只有女朋友在心頭....搵唔搵我都罷了....咁我女朋友?連佢自己都唔知想點.....又可以幫到我d咩?可能分分鐘傾完自己心情更差.....我真係好辛苦.......好想休息下去一個人無人既地方
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