Sometimes the feels no one understand
I don't even know why
I just do the things I do

I am really sad and afraid
My sister hates me very much, how come?
She pushes me very harsh,
she always punishes me
she talked to my eldest sister and said'' hey, how can you endure that you have three sister?''
hey, I really hate she always says something that hurt me deeply!

she always shout' EMILY, WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS STAY AT HOME AND DO NOTHING?'
 I try to cheer me up, but if something still happened and lost of control.
she punishes me harder and harder.
How can I tolerate her?
Anyone help me?

I know that I am a troublesome girl.
I know that I am useless.

ps; I know that I have made lots of grammatically mistakes.