點解呢?我點解日日都會提著佢呢??日日咁提,,提黎提去好似都唔完咁~但係我同佢拍左拖只不過1個月~已經發生左咁多事,,我根本就唔明點解佢會唔理我,,感情既野係就係難講,,但係我唔明我點解放唔低,,係唔係真係鍾意左佢呀??我自覺會好白痴,,每日都會好傻,,一悶,,一諗野,,我就會掛住佢~,,但係我地既事已經過左成幾個月啦~我仲以為我可以利用時間黎忘記佢~可能佢真係比左我好多歡樂啦~我承認佢係對我好好~比任何人對我更好~我明白,,佢係個[[好仔]],,但我最唔明點解佢可以就咁容易拋下的我,,係唔係我好煩,,係唔係我對佢太信任佢(難道我個時冇陪佢,,陪左fd,,而佢鍾意左第二個??),,我好唔明,,但係我日日都諗呢件事~我知我放唔低佢,,所以同佢散左之後,,每個月都係佢屋企樓下等佢,,等見他一面,,咁我就安心??我只覺是傻,,其實我點解要整呢個日記??我忘記左整日記既因為,,就因為係佢冇同我一齊之後,,我都想佢知道我既事,,我既唔開心,,我既開心,,佢知道我想要既係咩野,,佢咩都可以比我,,但點解這段愛情唔可以[[圍繫]]??我想知我想問,,我記得佢每一句說話,,佢每一句對我講既甜言蜜語,,我同佢既承諾,,仲記得個時就in緊twins首歌[[救生圈]],,佢同我一齊,,到底係唔係真??我同佢散左之後,,我好盲目呀!其實d fd同我講過[[你同佢都未過情人節,,好唔抵呀!]],,其實我都諗過呢個問題,,其實過咩節都冇所謂,,但係我最想既係佢係我身邊,,其他野都已經唔重要啦~,,我有諗過[[世界上有咁多男仔,,鍾意第二個都得姐..]]但係我唔得呀!!可能我愛得佢太過份,,我太專一,,我太長情,,我太白痴啦~呢個時候我係心裹又多左個疑問:記得係杰少對新仔講:[[天涯覓處何芳草,何必單戀一枝花??]]我覺得呢句可以表達到一d唔認真戀愛既人既態度,,我真係累啦~我成個腦都係諗佢,,如果當初我唔識佢,,咪好囉~~如果我當初唔執著搵佢,,咁我就唔跌入愛河啦~但係做人係冇如果,,事情過左就係過左,,有d野唔可以勉強,,我只好信我同佢係緣份一場啦~我諗我一日見唔到佢,,講唔清楚件事,,我一日都會咁盲目~不過我都要多謝佢,,今年暑假有佢陪我,,我覺得好開心,,知道左呢件事已經冇勉回餘地,,但回味下都好既,,[[用光一齊既時間都要記得你對過我好]]!!冇左佢,,我只知有d野係要珍惜,,藉此學會左要珍惜要愛惜每一樣我擁有過既野!冇左佢,,我諗我會好盲目咁生存!其實我好想聖誕節有佢陪我,,仲記得前幾日嘉燕叫我同佢去佢屋企樓下等佢,,個日我係好開心,,但係我都好驚,,我驚見到佢唔知講咩好,,個時我就同嘉燕開始傾計,,嘉燕同我講[[其實我叫你同我黎呢度係有其他原因,,唔係為左我想買野,,係為左想你放低呢段感情,,咁會令你開心d,,咁就唔洗日日提著佢]]我知嘉燕佢對我好好,,我承認fd子們對我做既每日一件事,,fd子們都係好錫我,,好想我開心,,可能佢覺得我見左蚊滋一面就會安心啦~可能啦~我都覺得我見到佢一面我會安心好多!但係可能會令比他日更加掛住佢,,我諗我既想思病唔會再好番既餘地~因為我對佢許下一個毒誓,,我對佢講過:[[我除左你之外我邊個都唔愛,,就算遲d我地散左,,我都會一世愛你一個,,非君不嫁!]]好毒呀!毒到我die左啦~可能我係個守得承諾既人啦~我諗呢個世上,,除左佢之外,,命運才可以將我既毒誓改變啦~